Well we’ve hit the last full moon for both 2019 and the decade this week. The moon will be transitioning through Gemini, and in less than three weeks we’ll be in 2020 (and a new decade). I swear that time goes by quicker now that I’m no longer taking classes, and having to have a set schedule daily (though with work it seemed that the workday dragged and the weekend flew by).
So what are some questions that one can contemplate during this time? Looking at “Moonology: working with the magic of lunar cycles” by Yasmin Boland, there are five questions that one can ask during this full moon:
Have I been gossipy, superficial, or flighty this month?
Have I been glossing over other people’s feelings?
Have I been too quick to change my mind, or too restless?
Have I been too much of a silver-tongued hustler?
Have I done enough reading to keep expanding my mind?
If I were to number the above questions 1-5, my answers would be as follow:
- I don’t think that I’ve been gossipy, superficial, or flighty this month. Truthfully, there are very few people that I talk to on a regular basis, and that is usually to catch up with each other since the last time we’ve talked/gotten together. I do try to keep the social engagements that I agree too as I don’t get out all that often.
- I don’t think that I’ve been glossing over other people’s feelings. Again, there are very few people that I interact with on a daily basis (that list is even smaller currently since I’m on my reboot break), so I do try to at least acknowledge where the other person is coming from.
- I doubt that I will ever be accused of being too quick to change my mind—if nothing else I overthink things and become “frozen”. I actually need to develop the skill of starting to try new things without any fear of failure, and then hopefully things will go a little more smoothly in my job search/transition.
- Again, I doubt that I will ever be accused of being a silver-tongued hustler. This is in part due to my introverted nature (being quiet and soft spoken), and also social anxiety. I would love to get a couple of side businesses going to help bring in extra money—but they will be slow going because of the above issues—being quiet, soft spoken, and dealing with social anxiety (and other issues).
- No, I haven’t been doing nearly enough reading to keep expanding my mind. Currently I’ve been in a rut to where I go back and reread different romance series, just because I’ve been in the mood for more of “happily ever after” than dealing with current state of the world. This is something that I’m going to be working on over the next few weeks and months as I continue on my reboot break and start really putting more effort into my transition plan and moving into an industry position.
So I’m also going to see what house the moon will be transition through during this time. Using my rising sign (which is Scorpio), the Gemini constellation is moving through my eighth house—this house deals with “death and rebirth, reinvention and transformation”. So in one aspect it is fitting that 2019 is ending with a Gemini full moon—as I resigned from my most current position at my alma mater (so the “death” of my job), and I’m in the process of going through both a personal and professional reinvention and transformation.
So this is the time to try to find balance between slowing down, rushing to learn things, being real with people, money, and determining one’s self worth.
So if I were to make a small goal list for the end of 2019, the goals will include:
Read at least two non-fiction books, and take (or highlight sections) notes in order to also post a book review on the blog (and possibly amazon as well).
Continue mediating nightly.
Start designing/creating a monthly editorial calendar—possibly start treating different areas of life as “classes”—create “syllabus” for each area (with “due dates” for specific things—treat things as “homework”).
And as I head into 2020 remember: Progress over perfection, and 2020 will be the year of change!!