So the moon has transitioned into its full moon stage
(either last night or the night before last—depending on where you live in the
world). This means that we’re half way through August, and pretty soon we’re
going to be entering the last few months of the year. I’ll be happy when the
temperatures cool down—I’m getting tired of the triple digits combined with the
high humidity.
So the moon has transitioned into Aquarius, and there are
questions that one can ask themselves during this time (again, all questions
come from “Moonology: Working with the magic of lunar cycles by Yasmin Boland).
Have I been pragmatic to the point of losing the romance of
life?
Have I been living too much in my head and not enough in my
heart?
Have I been trying to do things my way, just for the sake of
it?
Have I been trying too hard to befriend people, and for the
wrong reasons?
Have I allowed myself to move forwards this month?
So if I were to number the above questions 1-5, I think that
my answers would be as follows:
Have
I been too down to earth or rational lately? It depends on what one is talking
about—how I see the world? Yes, I’m way to pragmatic in seeing that the world
is going to hell in a hand basket right now. I’m sure that there are people who
say that I’m not being rational in how I’m handling my career transition
(taking a reboot break), especially since there are signs that a recession
could be coming. But I’ve always been a rational person, who likes to have an
idea of any and all outcomes before deciding on doing something (hence why I’m
still at home and working at my alma mater—I overthink and become paralyzed and
stuck).
This
is a toss up—I’m usually over cautious (being in my head), but at the same time
I’m trying to do more things that I enjoy (and that currently don’t pay the
bills—photography, reading, being outdoors).
This
depends again on context—what are we talking about. With my job—I do things as
written in the protocols. With my life—everything is up in the air, and it’s
hard to do something a certain way if you have no idea of what you’re doing.
I’m
not someone who makes friends quickly, so I can safely say that I haven’t been
trying to befriend people for any reason lately. I know that networking is an
important part of job searching and career advancement. While I have an
extensive network, I know that I need to actually start putting the work into
those relationships—and this something that I’m going to focus on during my
reboot break (though I will start doing a little more daily beforehand).
I
am slowly making progress on planning my reboot break, and am proud that I’m
sticking firm with stating that I’m not signing an extension contract for my
current position. I know that there is something more out there, I just have to
be willing to move forward to find it—and the best way to move forward is to
intentionally “close” a door—that way you have no choice but to move forward.
The Aquarius full moon is a time to find balance between
having a few real relationships and being the super person of the month. It is
also the time to reflect on things, and figure out how to let go of the things
that are no longer helpful or nurturing.
In addition to being within Aquarius, it is also important
to see what house the moon is passing through as well. Currently it is moving
though my sixth house, or my daily work and health zone. Again, it will be time
to reflect on things and figure out how to strike a balance that will bring
some peace to one’s life.
Things that one can contemplate during this time:
Giving up
bad habits.
Restarting
an exercise routine.
Going slow
and steady at work.
Fix the
habits/routines that are no longer working for you.
Start
meditating.
Take up
yoga.
So it is fitting that I’m passing through the daily work and
health zone—I know that I’ve let my fitness and health routine fall short a lot
(I know I’m eating way to many sweets), and I know that there are a million other
things I need to be working on as well. If I were to make a small list of goals
for the Aquarius full moon they would include:
Evening
meditations—I’ve been good at managing at least two to three minutes. I’d like
to work back up to doing five to ten minutes. Also I should try to figure out a
way of meditating during the day (instead of going for a walk to buy chocolate,
I should try to find a quiet spot to just sit and be for awhile).
Getting
back into a workout routine. While I may not be able to manage a daily
workout—I’ll aim for trying to workout two or three days a week, and work up to
doing a daily workout.
Work on my
reboot break and transition plans—journal any and all ideas. I have to remember
that this is my path to walk, and what may seem strange to others may just work
out perfectly for me.
So we’re officially a little over halfway through 2019, which means that there are 815 days left in this challenge (as today is July 5th 2019). So I decided that I should probably do a check-in on the goals and see where I’m at with them. Updates are in bold.
The dates for my 101 goal challenges are:
So my original start and finish dates were:
Start Date: January 1 2018
Finish Date: September 28 2020
My new start and finish dates:
Start Date: January 1, 2019
Finish Date: September 28, 2021
Here are my 101 goals for the next 1001 days
(random and non-grouped):
Transition into a biotech or
biopharma company as a research scientist
Become fluent in Spanish
Become fluent in German
Learn to program (R and maybe
python)
Visit at least three new
countries (0/3)
Finish the various other e-course
bundles that I bought (list out later)
Move to a new(ish) city for #1
Make it through at least 250 days
of beachbody workouts (share on twitter?) (0/250) *Luckily it doesn’t have to be consecutive days (though I would like
that)—I haven’t done a Beachbody workout in awhile (I also can’t remember how
many I’d done before I hit my slump).
Paint & frame at least one
original painting (0/1)
Finish the Dream Job Hack program
Finish the Youtube for bosses course
Finish the Youtube course creation for bosses course
Launch a youtube channel
Launch a online course
Get blog traffic to 500+ views/day
Publish 5-10 scientific blog posts (0/10)
Practice more photography (1-2 posts a week) I’ve managed to stick with the photography challenge so far, so at
least on the blog there have been new pictures post on a semi-constant basis
(at least for the past three-four months).
Get instagram followers to 800+
Showcase crafts on blog (afghans, artwork, jewelry)
Learn to make my own jewelry
Re-pierce my ears
Finish at least 200 personal/professional development books (and
post reviews) (35/200) *So out of
the 274 books I have on my book reading list for both personal and professional
development (and this number is growing)—I’ve read 20 in 2018, and 15 so far in
2019—that means I only have another 238 books to read to finish the list (and
that is only if I don’t add anymore books to the list).
Interact more on Linkedin (actually network with connections) (at
least 4 a week) (0/140)
Reach at least 14,014,000 steps (0/14,014,000); though if I add in
the steps from 2018—this could actually be closer to 20,000,000 steps
(goal—19,124,000 by Sept 28 2021 (as of yesterday (07/04/19) 8,047,645/19,124,000).
Visit at least one new national (or state) park (0/1)
Visit at least one new national (or state) monument (0/1)
5 pushups on toes (0/5)
10 pushups on toes (0/10)
Fly/land at least 3 new airports
Visit one new city & state (US) (0/1; 0/1)
Go to one or more scientific conferences (0/1)
Go to a blogging conference (0/1)
See the Northern Lights
Present at a scientific conference (0/1)
Post free monthly challenges in facebook groups
Write (or start) a book
Complete a 365 day photography challenge (137/365) I started the
challenge a little late this year, or more accurately it took me awhile to
build momentum to continue posting a daily picture.
Learn to cross-stitch
Reach 400+ followers on pintrest
Reach 1000+ followers on twitter
Publish at least two blog series (0/2)
Mediate at least 5 minutes a day (0/1001)
This one has been an off and on success—there have been at least one or two
weeks when I didn’t feel like meditating nightly, and therefore I didn’t—but
I’m slowly getting back into the routine.
No extra snacks at work (i.e. no hitting the coffee shop for cookies
in the morning) This one is a work in
progress, there are some days when I’m really good at not getting extra snacks
at work, and there are other days when I cave and get chocolate.
Declutter the movies in the house
Create an editorial calendar for blog (0/33) Well I’m slowly starting to try creating editorial calendars, but have
only been really good at posting certain topics (new/full moon goals &
updates, monthly updates & photography challenge). This is something I
still need to work on.
Credit card debt down to less than $500 a month (and getting paid
off monthly in full) This is almost
happening—I do have my debt at a level that I can pay off monthly, though some
bills get a little higher than planned.
Monthly budget (plus list of monthly recurring charges on credit
cards) (0/33) I’ve been doing this,
though not listing the recurring charges on my credit cards.
Learn to give mani/pedi and give myself one a month (0/33)This one is off the
list—because I have yet to do it, and while I might in the future I don’t see
me doing it quite yet.
Get a new sewing machine and make a new quilt for bed. This one is on hold until I move and then
I’ll be buying a new sewing machine.
Make my new moon & full moon goals (0/66) I’ve been keeping up with this one. Though I may not hit all the goals
for both the new moon & the full moon—I’m at least putting my intentions
out there for the universe to hear.
Buy a new couch and chair for my living room. This one and #s 52-54 are dependent on success with #1 & #7
Buy a new dresser for my bedroom
Buy a new mattress & box-spring for my bed
Buy a new TV & stand for living room
Reorganize my storage unit
Buy fabric & foam and make new cushions for rocking chair
Create a posting schedule (editorial calendar) for facebook pages
(0/66) I’m behind on this.
Generate at least three months of memes for facebook pages (0/3)
Create posting schedule (editorial calendar) for instagram (0/33) Behind on this.
Learn to use photoshop for memes & posts
Make a 30-day Zumba schedule & stick with it (0/30) Haven’t done this yet.
Visit one or more new zoos (0/1)
Visit one or more new aquariums (0/1)
Make a top 10 favorite author list (for different genera; romance,
fantasy/sci-fi, mystery/thriller, non-fiction) for blog
Write and share at least two posts on linkedin every two months (0/32) Behind on this as well.
Ask for endorsements from 6 well known connections on linkedin
(0/6) Behind on this well.
Endorse 3 to 5 people on linkedin every four months (0/40) Behind on this.
Renew professional memberships (0/6) Need to do this soon.
Get into the “best shape” of my life. This is one of the things I’m going to try to focus on more, and maybe
should be moved higher in the list.
Finish reading books on scientific writing (review and post) (0/7)
Take a multivitamin & supplements daily (0/1001). There have been several days (going on to
a week) that I’ve missed taking my multivitamin & supplements.
Design a logo for my blog/website
Finish 3 hidden object games without using hints, or the strategy
guide
Go to a author-reader conference and meet authors
Write in journal daily (0/1001). There have been several weeks that I didn’t do this (mainly due to my
current mood—even though I know when I’m feeling down or in a funk that is
actually a good time to journal).
Complete my book of Sudoku puzzles (minus the ones crossed out)
Drink 70 oz of water a day (0/1001). There have been quite a few days when this hasn’t happened.
Color in two coloring books (0/2) (pictures on blog/instagram)
Knit another afghan (diamond pattern) This has been started, and hopefully will be finished this coming
winter.
Watch all the episodes of Hawaii 5-0
Go to at least 2 professional networking events (0/2)
Update Linkedin profile (0/2)
Watch all the episodes of Grimm
Design a science based board game
Hold a two minute plank (on forearms)
Hold a 90 second plank (full)
Go at least one weekend a month without social media (0/33) This hasn’t happened yet, though with the
way the world is going I might start doing it.
Create (and update) a vision board. I’ve created and updated a digital vision board, and will probably
try to update it at least every two to three months.
Get an additional external hard drive to back up the laptop &
external DVD drive for installing printer program on laptop
Create my own coffee table photography book
Touch base with friends that I haven’t talked to lately
Savings up another 20K (0/20K)
Get at least three plants and keep them alive (0/3)
Stretch daily (0/1001)
Watch all the episodes of The Librarians
Watch all the episodes of Once Upon A Time
Get Fit with Jessi to 1000+ likes
Get BecomingJessi to 1000+ likes
I’ve only removed one goal from the
list—giving myself a mani/pedi monthly. I’ve never been the type to fuss with
their nails (though I know with job searching, I do need to start taking better
care of my nails, and this does include painting them every so often). I’ve
realized that I have fallen behind on some of the daily goals (taking my
multivitamins, drinking a certain amount of water a day, and writing in my
journal every day)—but at least I do start back up, even if it tampers off, and
then starts again.
I also know that there are goals that I
haven’t started on, and others that require another goal to be accomplished
before they are looked at. I know where I need to try to focus for the next few
months (personal care—mental and physical health, and slowly figuring out my
career objectives), and once these are on track, I think the others will follow
suit.
July marks the start of the second half of the year, and the start of the third quarter. That also means that it is time to take a look at my level 10 life, and see what changes have occurred since April (when I did my last level 10 life check-in).
Level 10 life check-in. Starting the third quarter of the year.
In case you haven’t heard of Level 10 life, basically what it is–you take ten different areas of your life (friends & family, personal development, spirituality, finances, social life, career, fun & recreation, giving & contributions, physical environment, and finally health & fitness) and you rate them on a scale of 1 to 10.
When you rate them, you’re not suppose to spend a lot of time thinking about it–you rate them as how are they are–not how you would like them to be.
I started doing this last year (when I first read about it), and I will admit that there really hasn’t been any huge changes in any given area. I’m lucky if I can get things up to a five or a six. There are some areas that have held constant at around a five (namely family and friends), and my lowest has been at a one (social life).
My long term goal is to try to get things up to a seven or an eight, and I’d prefer if I could also maybe get my social life up to a four or a five. Every area needs work, as this check-in has shown that things have slipped backwards just a little compared to my April check-in.
While I could try to focus on little things for all ten different areas, I’m thinking that I’m going to try to focus on just three or four areas. Therefore my goals will be:
In terms of personal development: Continue reading different non-fiction books and working through different e-courses.
In terms of spirituality: Meditating daily, and doing a daily tarot/oracle card reading (even if I don’t share them right away).
In terms of career: Working on my “reboot break”, my transition plan, and trying to network more.
In terms of health and fitness: Trying to get back into a workout routine (either doing a program all the way through, or creating my own hybrid calendar).
I think that these are the basically the three big areas I need to focus: health (physical and mental), career (figuring out the next step), and just working on becoming the best me possible. Once I have these headed in the proper direction, everything else should also head in the proper direction.
So the moon is entering the first new moon phase for July
and is transitioning through the Leo constellation today and tomorrow. July has
officially started, and there are only 183 days left in the year (I’d
personally like to know where February and March went).
So what are some of the things that one can focus on during
the Cancer new moon?
Family time
(check in with relatives)
Banish
insecurity
Get in
touch with your caring and nurturing side
Review your
goals
Take a hot
bath
I also need to look to see what house the Cancer moon is
moving through over the course of the new moon. Looking at things, Cancer is
going through my ninth house (or my big picture zone). This is about adventure,
travel, and personal development.
So what are some of the things that one can do during this
time in regards to the ninth house?
Find a way
to explore the world.
Read those
books you know you should be reading.
Do a
personal development course.
Manifest a
new spiritual teacher.
Think about
what you have faith in—and what you don’t.
Make a
cyber pal on the other side of the world.
Have
something you’ve written published.
I think that it’s fitting that the universe is nudging me to
continue to do personal development. I’ve realized over the past few weeks that
one of my biggest roadblocks to doing anything is that I don’t like
confrontations. I usually go out of my way to be a team player, and to fly
under the radar. This could be from childhood, where I decided it was better to
keep quiet than have a teacher correct my pronunciation of words (and I’ve
realized that this is a massive trigger for me now as an adult). I know that
I’m not happy with my position, and that change is needed—but at the same time
I don’t want to rock any boats on my way out either.
So in terms of the things that one can do during this time
in regards to the ninth house:
I am trying to plan a solo vacation abroad for the fall
(possibly around my birthday). But I’ve only gotten as far as thinking about
it. I would like to try to brush up on a foreign language (that way I can
possibly travel somewhere where English isn’t the main language).
I am slowly working my way through my huge to-be-read list
of books that cover both personal and professional development.
I have several different e-courses that I am going to slowly
be working through (some are personal development areas, and others are
professional development).
In terms of spirituality and what I have faith in—currently
on hold.
Making a cyber pal on the other side of the world—I’m in
several different groups that have people all over the world, so I think I’m
good on this one.
Having a blog counts for publishing right?
Therefore my goals for the Cancer New Moon period are going
to be:
1) Review, edit, and update my 12-month goals/plans for the
different areas that I set out back under the Aries new moon.
2) Meditate nightly (even if it’s only for a couple of
minutes).
3) Do a daily tarot/oracle card reading (even if I don’t
share on social media right away).
4) Read at least one more non-fiction book (two-three would
be great)
5) Start working through some of the different e-courses
that I’ve bought over the past two years.
**Disclaimer** I am not in the healthcare profession, if you
are in need of medical (or mental) help—please see a licensed healthcare
professional. The following are just my thoughts, feelings, and ways I think I
can deal with my issues. Again—if you have issues, please see a licensed
healthcare professional**.
Spent part of the weekend doing some serious reflection, and
have come to the realization of several things:
I need to
get better at time management (especially on the weekends, when I really don’t
have my day structured that much). I realize that I could have the traffic
coming to the blog higher, if I actually got posts written and posted on a
regular schedule—instead of the semi-regular, sporadic schedule I’ve been
doing.
Also having
better time management, means that I could probably also be looking at
different career tracks that are in the free-lancing and consulting areas
(instead of looking for the just general nine-to-five jobs).
I would
also have the time to dedicate to crafts and other projects or things I want to
get accomplished.
I have also
become my own worse enemy in terms of getting into the best shape of my life. I
have allowed myself to use just about any excuse for not doing my workouts in
the evenings, and before anyone comments that I could be doing them in the
mornings—right now I’m barely getting my seven and a half hours of sleep, and
therefore I’m not sacrificing that just to get a workout in first thing in the
morning.
This one is
also tied into the time management need as well—there are only so many hours in
the evening before heading to bed, that I probably could be making better use
of them, then how I’ve been using them.
I also need
to find better ways of dealing with my stress and anxiety. I have found myself
going to the little market on campus and buying several different sweets and
candy bars (that will either last me the day, or a couple of days depending on
my stress/anxiety levels).
The stress
and anxiety have been issues that I really should have been dealing with years
ago. I have a pretty good idea where a lot of my anxiety issues (tests,
driving, and to some extent social) have come from (childhood can suck at
times), and the stress is due in part to internalizing how I feel instead of
just letting it out (probably would have had more issues in school if I vocalized
how I felt at times). So those two issues have probably lead to some health
issues (indigestion and upset stomach) that I also need to find better ways of
dealing with (then taking over the counter medications and trying to ignore
them).
So how can I start to address and manage these issues (I
won’t say overcome and get rid of—because I know that having that mindset can
set me up for failure)?
In terms of time management—I need to ask myself what
tasks/items am I doing (or can I be doing) that are (or can be considered)
beneficial for the future me.
Also I probably should look into the different apps/web
pages that allow you to block certain pages to help increase productivity (I
know that I do spend way to much time on social media).
Also I should ask myself—what tasks am I doing during the
day at work that are actually going to be helping me move forward (and not
actually helping move someone else forward). This might be a little more
problematic, as I’m sure that there are at least one or two people that won’t
be happy if I start to figure out other things to do that I deem more important
then they do. In other words—I really need to start working on my
individualized development plan (or my reboot break/transition plan).
In terms of getting back on track in terms of fitness and
nutrition—there are several things that I can do:
Have my
bedroom clean and the workout equipment off to the side. That way once I’m done
with a few evening chores, I can put on my workout clothes, stream the workout
program and get it done.
Not compare
myself to others. This has been a hard one for me (especially the last few
years that I’ve gained the weight back and the negative mind set).
If I need
to take a walk at lunch (due to stress or anxiety), I will try to have my small
digital camera on me so that I can practice my photography skills (instead of
going to spend money on candy).
Also when
needed—take my journal and go for a walk; then find a quiet area where I can
sit and reflect on what is potentially causing my anxiety or stress to occur.
Sit and try to write for at least five to ten minutes and then head back to the
lab. Hopefully this will help me get a handle on the stress and anxiety.
Get back
into the habit of trying to mediate for at least three to five minutes every
night before reading.
Try to pack
my shakeology (and supplements) to take to work and have it as either part of
lunch or a snack. This will help me work back up to having it as part of
breakfast.
So I know what I need to do in order to get myself back on
the correct trail—patch some things that weren’t working, and rework some other
things. I’m now going to picture my journey moving forward in one of two ways:
I’m hiking and I will need to look for things to help me on my way; or I’m on a
boat at sea, and I need to find unique ways of patching little holes in the
boat to ensure that I can make it to the next island/land formation.
So during the month of February I decided that I was going
to use the Sacred Rebels Oracle deck (I also got this deck out in Salem last
October, along with the unicorn deck). This is a deck that will take a little
bit more time to get use to using, as it doesn’t just address the emotions, but
also a little bit of the mindset behind certain behaviors. So I will admit that
there were times that I kept shuffling the cards and drawing until I felt
comfortable with the message—I know that I should have worked with the first
message, and this is something that I’m going to be working on in the future.
Possibly by doing two different readings (ones that I post, which will come
from possibly a different deck; and then another reading from the sacred rebels
deck) and working on incorporating the messages from both in my life.
So the Sacred Rebels Oracle deck has forty-five different
cards that cover a wide range of thoughts and emotions. Out of those forty-five
cards, there were seven that I either didn’t pull or I reshuffled on (without
making note of them). With the remaining thirty-eight cards, the number of
times they showed up ranged from once up to six times. The cards that showed up
the most were:
Inner Trust (4 times)
Inspiration (6 times)
Follow your own rhythm (4 times)
Shock of the new (6 times)
Diving for light (4 times)
Going beyond normal (4 times)
Dream a beautiful dream (5 times)
Seeing the true you (5 times) The other thirty cards showed up one to three times throughout the month. So lets look at some of the readings that I did during February.
February 2nd Oracle Card Reading
On the second, I did a simple three-card spread. Sometimes
people use this as a past, present, future read or asking about a certain
question. For the most part during February I was doing a three to four-card
spread to have an idea of what the following day might be bringing.
The three cards that were drawn on the second were: 14)
going beyond normal, 23) defend to the end, the worthwhile, and 29) seeing the
true you. So as many may know—I’m also starting to look at transitioning from
academia to industry, and that is one thing that the card could be referring
to—the safe would be staying in my position, or finding another academic
position (that probably doesn’t pay all that well, and the duration is questionable
as well) or step out of my safety zone and go into industry (or some other
direction other than what I’m currently doing). The second card refers to
standing your ground for what you believe in (and that is especially important
in today’s society with the way the world is going). The final card is a gentle
reminder that while it is important what others think of us—those reflections
don’t define who we are—we define who we are and that we need to start looking
at our own mirrors and not the mirrors that others hold up to us.
February 13 Oracle Card Reading
On
the thirteenth, I did another three-card spread and those three cards that were
drawn were: 38) restore and replenish; 3) inspiration; and 6) shock of the new.
With the restore & replenish card, basically the universe is telling you
that you need to a change. The same routine is only going to give the same
results. It also lets us know that at times we’re going to fast and hard that
it is also time to slow down and listen to our bodies and inner voices.
Inspiration is almost self-explanatory. There are so many ideas and thoughts
that bounce around in our heads that we need to take time daily and write them
down. Some may be good, some may be bad—but if we don’t write them down we will
probably forget about them all by the end of the day. This is one thing that
I’m trying to do daily—write down both ideas and things that I’m grateful for
(no matter how silly they would probably seem to other people). The final card is
a reminder that nothing really stays the same, and new opportunities could
present themselves in unexpected ways
February 17 Oracle Card Reading
On the seventeenth, I did a four-card spread, and the cards
drawn were: 18) spirals of manifestation; 42) the word wants to be written; 39)
free from judgment, free to love; and 16) what you want, wants you. So the
spirals of manifestation reminds us that we may be closer to our goals/dreams
than we think we are and that we should continue working towards them. “The
word wants to be written” card is a little deceiving when one pulls it for the
first time—it’s message is to be true to yourself, and uncover your path by
remembering who you are (not who others think you should be). While it can also
resonate with creative projects, the biggest project is listening to the inner
voice and remembering what makes you smile, happy, and figuring out how to
incorporate all of that into the crazy world we live in today. The free from
judgment, free to love reminds us that self love/care is important, and that it
is perfectly fine to be in tune with our emotions and wanting to help others,
but at the same time we should guard against those who want to take advantage
of that. The final card states that we should trust in what we truly want, and
if we’re unsure of what we truly want we should enjoy the process of exploring the
things we enjoy. Only by either truly knowing what we want, or exploring
different areas of ourselves can we actually find ourselves on the correct
path.
February 20th five card spread
Then on the twentieth I did a five-card spread in the
pattern of a cross (and that is only because that is how the cards talked to me
that night). The cards that I drew included: 6) shock of the new; 14) going
beyond normal; 17) what is already with you; 15) big bold vision; and 44)
visions of life beyond death. So two of the cards I’ve already talked about a
bit (shock of the new and going beyond normal), though in the combination with
the other cards, they can take on a slightly different meaning. In terms of
“what is already with you”—we (usually) have what we need to make a change in
our lives—we can change our major, move, start looking for a new job, or
whatever—we just have to believe in ourselves (as not believing in ourselves is
usually the biggest obstacle to overcome). This is still something that I
struggle with in terms of my job search—I know that I have it within me to make
the transition, but at times I let the negative voices have a bigger voice than
what I should (and this is something that I try to work on conquering on a
daily basis). The “visions of life
beyond death” is another card that can be a little deceiving when one pulls it
for the first time—it’s message is to take another look at things/situations
and try to truly see what they mean to you (see what is actually there instead
of what you perceive to be there). Also to remember that it’s easier to look
through joyful, happy emotions than it is through fear, anger and darker
emotions.
One of the things that I’ve noticed this month in using the
cards is that I’m being reminded that I’m here to live life for myself and not
others. It is time to start being true to myself (in terms of both spirituality
and life in general), and that my “perfect 9-5” job is out there, and I just
need to find some calm and quiet time to get in touch with my inner self and
voice to be able to hear what that position is. This will be a deck that I use
again this year (possibly as early as September or October) and I’m sure I will
get more comfortable with the interpretations and readings the more often I use
the deck.
So we’re well into the year—tomorrow marks the second full
moon (and depending on whom you listen to, it will either be back through the
Leo constellation or entering the Virgo constellation). I’m going to go with
the assumption that the moon is transitioning through each constellation during
both the new moon and the full moon periods. That means that tomorrow, the moon
should be entering the Virgo constellation.
So that means, that it is time to look back at the goals
that were set for the Leo full moon period last month, and determine how I did
with each goal.
So my goals for the last full moon were:
Continue
to try to workout daily
Continue
working on my transition plan. I more or less have part of my why down (why I’m
in science and research in general)—I just need to work on why I want to leave
academia for industry, figure out the companies, interact more on linkedin and
so forth.
Start
working on some craft again (whether it’s photography, knitting, starting to
make jewelry, or just coloring in a coloring book).
Mediate
nightly, and remember that if I keep putting one foot in front of the other,
change will come—but I have to work towards the change and not wait for it to
come to me.
So how did I do with each one?
In terms of working out daily, I have more or less managed
this with the one or two rest days on the weekends. I haven’t totally gotten to
where I do a different workout each day (I have realized that if I haven’t hit
my step goal for the day, I’m going to put on a workout program that will allow
me to almost hit the goal by the end of the workout (or surpass it)), and then
I know that by bedtime I should have my steps in. I am going to try to start
varying the workouts again (especially to get in more strength training), as I
continue to try to be a little better than yesterday in terms of fitness.
In terms of my transition plan, I’ve realized that I have
been letting indecision and fear of failure keep me spinning in circles. I have
an idea of at least one biotech hub (mainly Boston) that I wouldn’t mind moving
back to. I’m also thinking of possibly St. Louis or Indianapolis for the
Midwest area, and then also possibly Washington DC. I know there are hubs on
the west coast—but they’re about double the price of being in Boston or
Washington DC—so I think I may stick east of the Rocky Mountains.
In terms of crafting, this is something that I’ve fallen
behind on. I’ve been trying to do my daily photography challenge, but with cold
weather and it barely getting light by the time I leave to catch the bus this
has been difficult (since I decided that I shouldn’t just be posting pictures
of the animals or tarot cards all the time [though yes I know that is basically
my instagram posts right now]). I may try to continue working on my afghan as I
would like to have that finished before I possibly move in the
summer/fall/winter.
I have been trying to mediate nightly, though at times it
may just be laying on the acupuncture mat for 3-5 minutes trying to clear my
mind and relieve the tension in my back and shoulders before going to bed.
There may gave only been one night this past month that I didn’t mediate, and
that was due to be extremely sore my workout and I wasn’t sure if I could a)
get down to the floor, and if I could get down b) I wasn’t sure I could get off
the floor.
So out of the four goals, the only one that I really didn’t
make a lot of progress on was the crafting goal. This will probably always be
on the list (either on a full/new moon list or working it’s way back into a
weekly habit tracker list), that way I can have a daily reminder that there
should be a balance between life and work, and relaxing is actually something
that is good for me.
So one of the things that I have decided to work more on
cultivating is my spirituality. Note—I said spirituality and not religion. I
don’t believe in organized religion, or the idea that you have to be threatened
with the thought of eternal damnation to be a good person. If you need that
threat to behave—you have moral issues in addition to spiritual issues.
Depending on my mood (and possibly people around me), I
fluctuate between saying that I’m a pagan/wiccan and I’m an atheist. The last
time I actually set foot inside a church was back in 2001 for my older
brother’s wedding. My main criticism of organized religion is that they all
argue that one is better than the other, when in truth they’re all the same
(just slightly different forms) and no matter what—we all bleed the same.
So in terms of cultivating my spirituality more, I’ve
decided that I’d do a couple of different things: 1) to read more books on
different aspects of spirituality (there are probably a good half a dozen on my
personal/professional development book list), 2) build my own pagan/wiccan
altar, and 3) do a daily tarot/oracle card reading (which may or may not be
posted on social media). I think that there have only been probably two or
three days this year that I haven’t posted my evening oracle card reading.
In terms of the daily card readings, I have also decided
that each month I will try to stick with one oracle/tarot card deck. Currently
I have like six different decks in my room (and another three or four in my
storage unit). Card readings have always fascinated me, in that it’s a way of
seeing what the universe has in store for us, and to possibly get another view
to a question.
So last month’s deck that I used as the Oracle of the
Unicorns (which I bought out in Salem last October when I was there on a
mini-vacation). I have always been fascinated by the idea of supernatural
creatures (and I don’t mean the horror show variety), but ones that have both a
human side and an otherworldly side (I guess that is one reason why I’m drawn
to paranormal romances as well). So back to the cards—January was the month of
the unicorn for me. This was the second month of using oracle cards for
guidance (December was using the enchanted spell oracle cards), and wisdom.
So the oracle of the unicorns has forty-four cards in the
deck, and over the course of January, only two cards weren’t drawn in a reading
(either privately or ones posted on Instagram). Of the other cards, the number
of times ranged from a single drawing to eight times over the month. The cards
that showed up the most in the drawing included:
Adventure (8 times),
Passion (8 times),
Strength (8 times),
Freedom (7 times),
Prosperity (6 times),
Imagination (5 times),
Intuition (5 times),
Miracles (5 times),
Patience (5 times),
Rebirth (5 times), and
Trust (5 times). The others (other than leadership and
beloved) showed up between one and four times, throughout the month.
So let’s look at some of the readings that I did last month:
January 9th Spread
So on the 9th, the spread stated that adventure and change are still on the horizon, though it is also a time for self compassion and forgiveness. Strength and passion will also see you through the process as well. One of the things that I am trying to work on this year, is replacing the negative self-talk with more positive self talk (more compassion towards myself). Adventure is pretty self explanatory—the world is a large place, and we really shouldn’t stay in just a small area of if (though now traveling is expensive—but one should try to do at least one trip a year; preferably to somewhere they haven’t been before).
The passion card refers to more than just doing what you love—it also refers to taking care of yourself. Again this is something that I’m working on this year. Though my methods may go against the norm, but I’m going with moderation (still having snacks [i.e. chocolate and candy], and not putting a label on food [good vs bad]), and doing some type of exercise at least six days a week—a rest day is always good).
The strength card is referring to the fact that life will always be testing us, and that we can get through it to the other side stronger than what we started. The “main test” this year is my transition from academia to industry, and finding my footing again in terms of getting into the best shape of my life.
January 16th pyramid reading
So on the 16th I decided to do a pyramid reading using the cads. I was thinking on another question in terms of my job search (the why), and got quite a bit of information from the unicorns. They were urging me to remember what excites me about science, but at the same time listen to my inner voice and be in the moment. There will be more networking on the horizon and a new path will be forged and support from other will help on the way.
The awareness card reminds us that only when we are truly living in the moment do we actually feel peace and security—and that our guides are watching over us and that things are happening for a reason. The passion card showed up again in the pyramid—showing that it has a firmer foundation when you surround yourself with liked minded individuals who are also seeking to grow. But at the same time you need to listen to your inner voice and trust your instincts (intuition).
The rebirth card showed up in the spread. This unicorn urges you to shed what no longer is of use to you, so that you can continue growing into the person you were meant to be. The support and friendship cards showed up to remind us that we don’t have to do everything alone, that there are people who support us in our journeys and to surround ourselves with them.
January 20th spread
This was a reading that I did right around the time of the Leo full moon, and I was also trying to reflect back on different areas of my life. I noticed that the unicorns were urging me to slowly start stepping out of my comfort zone so that I could grow and reinvent myself this year. I had stated that while change can be scary, its better than being stuck in a job you don’t love and one that doesn’t offer that much growth.
So again the passion card showed up in the spread, as well as the rebirth card. In addition to the oracles of celebration, flow, and expansion.
The oracle of celebration reminds us to look for even the smallest achievements and successes that we’ve been having (for me at times that means getting through the work day without actually saying what is on my mind), and that if we remain positive, we will be reward with positive outcomes as well.
The oracle of flow reminds us that somethings aren’t meant for us and that once we realize that and surrender the outcome things become much easier to navigate. All you can do is your best, and once the day is done—the day is done. No one should be trying to repeat and correct days that they had already done their best on.
The oracle of expansion is reminding us that we need to spread our wings and soar. Once that happens we can share our magic with the world, and maybe just maybe start making the world a better place for all of us.
January 23rd reading
Adventure is still on the horizon, but as always there is an obstacle in the path, but strength and believing in myself will see me through to the other side. Action, self love, and believing in dreams will also see me through.
So the adventure and strength cards showed up again in today’s spread. The main obstacle to my transition is my negative thoughts and doubts about what I actually want to be doing in my next career. The unicorns are saying that I’m ready for taking that step—I just need to believe in myself and take that first step. In addition, I need to practice self love and realize that I’m not going to look like others even once I get into the best shape of my life—but that I need to love myself now and realize that getting into shape isn’t to punish or change, but to honor myself by being able to do things that I’ve wanted to do (but haven’t due to the fact that I’m out of shape).
Also I’m reminded that there are divine powers that are watching over me, and that at the right time my “prayers” or requests will be answered by the universe.
January 24th spread
The unicorns said that change is still on the horizon, and that hard work, patience and imagination will get me there; along with help from friends and mentors.
The oracle of patience is to remind us that it is okay to slow down every once in awhile—if we do hard work, put in the effort, there are times when all you can then do is wait (i.e. after a job interview) to see if the fruits of your labor paid off. The oracle of growth is reminding us that having a mentor (or several mentors) can always help the process go a little quicker as well.
The oracle of imagination is there to remind us not to neglect the other half of our selves—the side that loves imagining new things, ideas, creations, and so forth. In addition the healer showed up in the spread, to remind that we all have gifts to share with the world.
So these were just a few of my evening readings from last month. As I continue on my spiritual path, I’m slowly realizing that there are some decks that make it easier to share the insights, while other decks seem to be a little more personal in the readings and interpretations. The unicorn deck is one deck that I will be going back once I’ve cycled through all of my decks.
Also once I have my wicca/pagan altar built, the guidance of the cards may pop a little more than what it’s currently doing (as my current reading spot is on the rug in my bedroom).
If you are looking for an oracle deck to start using yourself for inspiration and guidance, this is one (of probably many) that I strongly recommend.
So today is February 2nd. It marks the midway
point between the winter solstice and the spring solstice. For wiccans and
pagans, today is known by a couple of different names—Imbolc, Oimelc (“ewe’s
milk”), the ancient Egyptians called today Feast of Nut (celebrating the
birthday of the goddess Nut), and the ancient Romans called this time
Lupercalia.1 In more modern times, we refer to day as Groundhog’s
Day. The day that a rodent will declare if it’s six more weeks of winter or six
weeks until spring.
I’ve always found that to be funny—because no matter how you
look at it, it’s still six weeks until the official start of spring. Yes, there
might still be some winter temperatures and weather during that six weeks (and
we’re probably going to be seeing more winter weather lasting longer due to
climate change), but the days do start to get a little longer, and stay a
little warmer.
This year it’s been “predicted” that it will be an early
spring—in other words, it was probably cloudy when the groundhog “came” out of
its burrow and didn’t see it’s shadow.2 The animal seeing it’s
shadow and predicting the weather, has been around for a long time—I guess it’s
more “humane” to make use of a rodent, then trying to lure out a bear or other
large animal to see what they’d “predict.”2
While I’m ready for the spring temperatures and longer days,
I will miss the atmosphere of curling up with a blanket and book on the
weekends, or working on my latest knitting project (which I’m hoping to have
finished sometime this year). Though it will make it also a little easier doing
the walks at Boomer Lake on the weekend if the temperatures aren’t in the
twenties or teens (with windchills even lower).
Happy Groundhog’s Day or Happy Imbolc Day (depending on what
you practice, and believe in).
I’ve added in the reference to the Imbolc image here as
well, as I noticed it doesn’t show up all that well on the picture.
Well January is off and running. Today and tomorrow
(depending on where you are in the world) marks the first full moon of the
year—and a lunar eclipse as well. Now the lunar eclipse is suppose to be
visible from North America, which is great—but when the temps are dipping down
into the teens around the time the eclipse is suppose to take effect—I’m
probably going to sleep this one through and wait another four years for the
next one. Now I know that’s not the way one really should be doing things—but I
haven’t played with my camera on a tripod (which I would need to use in the
dark)—so until I have better practice with it—I’ll just like everyone else’s
pictures.
So looking back at the full moon from last month (which was
right around the time of the winter solstice), I had made a small set of goals
for the ringing in the New Year. Tonight is the time to look back at them and
reflect on how I did with each one.
So my goals for the this full moon period will include:
Do
both a nightly tarot card reading and meditate nightly (even if it’s only two
or three minutes).
Update
various goal posts (101 goals in 1001 days; Level 10 life)
Start
planning out my transition plan for the spring
Read
at least one more personal/professional development book
Get
through at least one more mini personal/professional development courses
Renew
at least two professional memberships
How did I do with each one?
1—In terms of doing a nightly tarot card reading, I think
there may have only been one or two nights during the holiday break that I
didn’t do one. I’ve been pretty good this month in doing a tarot/oracle
reading. In fact I’m planning on posting at least one update on the blog on my
tarot card readings (since this month I’ve switched and am using the Oracle of
the Unicorn deck instead of the Enchanted Spell Oracle deck). I have been doing
a nightly mediation session (which right now mainly consists of lying on my
acupuncture mat and quieting my thoughts).
2—I did update both my Level 10 life goal and the 101 goals
in 1001 days post at the beginning of the month. I actually should look back at
both and see how I’m doing in terms of meeting the different areas of life.
3—I have been slowly working on my transition plan. I need
to get a little better at actually planning things out, but I’ve made a little
momentum forward in terms of figuring out my why, and starting to figure out
the most logical ways for networking.
4—I’ve actually managed to finish a couple of books so far
this month:
Move Your Æ
Ash: Know, Grow, & Show Your Career Value by Paul Carney
Anti Goals: Find Success by Knowing what to avoid by Kevin
Wagonfoot
Power Up Your Self Talk: 6 Simple Habits to Stop Beating
Yourself Up and Reclaim Your Life by Michal Stawicki
Anti-Debt: A guide to personal finance, getting out debt and
building a money plan for our life by Kevin Wagonfoot
5—I’ve made it through one of the “courses” that I bought on
Udemy in terms of trying to figure out the best strategy for job searching.
There was one useful thing that I got out of the course that I am going to
start trying to implement in my job search (mainly in terms of trying to figure
out “stories” to have on the interviews to show case having the skills that
they want).
6—This was one that I haven’t gotten around to doing yet.
One reason is that with the government shutdown—I’m leery of travel, mainly
because I don’t want to add to the headache of the people who have to work
without being paid. Also with it being the beginning of the year—I’m trying to
pay down the credit cards and not really add a huge amount to them, and lets
face it professional membership prices aren’t cheap.
I’m proud that I’ve managed to meet most of the goals that I
made during the winter solstice last month. I know that I’m not perfect, and
going forward I need to be asking myself: How is this helping me—is it
mentally, physically, spiritually, or financially helping or could it be more
of a hindrance. 2019 needs to be the year of change, and growth—which means
slowly stepping outside of my comfort zone to become the person that I know I
can become.
