As I’ve been doing quite a bit of personal
development/reflections over the past few weeks—I’ve realized that when it
comes to my two or three biggest obstacles in trying to transition from
academia to industry, they all have one thing in common—they’re all mental and
I need to do the following to get past them:
that there are obstacle/blocks to getting to my goals.
workable plan for dealing with said obstacles (without hopefully adding more
anxiety or obstacles to the path)
to make small strides towards getting to stated goals.
remember that the goals may be fluid and change as I move forward.
So what are these obstacles or blocks that I’ve recognized
over the past few weeks?
The first one is actually the major one—movement paralysis. What I mean by this is that I’ve overthought things so much, that I’m basically afraid to move in any direction, due to the (almost totally irrational) fear that I’m going to be making another large mistake. This is actually a three part paralysis problem–as described below.
This is due in part to how my first post-doctoral position
ended—not well. In hindsight I probably shouldn’t have taken that position—I
only learned a few new techniques, made quite a few new friends—but I didn’t
end up having a very good working relationship with my mentor. When the
position ended, I was financially in the hole and felt like I was pretty much
emotionally in the hole as well (due mainly to stress).
I came back home to get my financial feet steady again, and
to see if I could still find enjoyment in academic research. So—I do have my
financial feet steady (for the most part), and while I do enjoy the freedom of
academic research—I’m so far off the path from a faculty position, it isn’t
funny. If I were to stay in academic research—it would have to be in a support
position, and if I was paid a decent salary I’d almost consider staying in
academia—but I know I won’t be, and therefore it’s time to move on.
Switching from academia to industry is going to be a
complete culture shock, and I know this—also this is where the movement
paralysis comes in—what direction do I want to go in?
There is research at the bench, research away from the bench, marketing, sales, writing, data analysis, clinical, law, ethics, and everything in between. There is also the fact that companies want to hire people focused on a couple of things, and not jack-of-all-trades (and that is how I currently feel—like I’m more of a jack of all trades than a specialist).
So that is the first part of my movement paralysis—determining
which direction(s) do I try to go in? Which then leads to the second part of my
movement paralysis–what do I feel like “specializing” in, and what do I feel
like being a “jack-of-all-trades” in?
I’ve always enjoyed learning new things, and at times I tend
to get bored and let my mind wander if I have to do the same thing over and
over again—though I have tried to get better at this with my most current
position. I also know that there are probably quite a few techniques that I’m
lacking knowledge on for certain positions. I know that I can pick up the
techniques fairly quickly, so that isn’t the major problem (though it is tied
with the second issue—which I’ll get to possibly in the next post)—but I’m
worried that I’ll get bored with what I’m doing and that there may not be that
much to learn with the position.
So this means that I need to look through my diverse
scientific background, and list out basically everything I’ve done and decide
which two or three things (or areas), are the ones that I’d be willing to spend
forty to say sixty hours a week of my life working on for the next thirty to
thirty-five years. I know that most of the areas have a numerous papers
published monthly, and that it would take quite awhile to feel like I’m an “expert”
in those areas—getting back into reading scientific papers is something else I
know I need to work on (I lost the little bit of enjoyment I had for that
during my postdoctoral years).
This then brings me to the third point of my “movement
paralysis”—determining which companies to work for, and brings the triangle of
my “movement paralysis” to a close. This point is tied in even more closely
with the first point (which direction), than the second one is. There are
numerous companies, of different sizes (small start-ups up to large
multi-national companies), and they all have their own different culture,
ideas, pursuits, and so forth.
So once I have an idea of the two or three directions I’m
wanting to go in, then I will also start looking at the different companies
that are in those areas and work from there. One way of pursuing this—figure
out a way that the different directions could almost go together and therefore
make it easy for determining which company (or companies) I want to work for
and which biotech hubs I want to be working/living in as well.
So those are my three areas of “movement paralysis”:
which direction to go,
what to be an “expert” in and what to be a “jack-of-all-trades” in, and then
which companies to start looking into, and what biotech hubs to also look into.
Now how am I going to address each area of “paralysis” and
In terms of which direction to go in—I have several
different ideas, but the main “issue” would be trying to figure out how I could
go from research at the bench to doing marketing research behind the scenes for
example—I know it has been done, but my thought would be can it be done after
being in industry (say a second job transition from the bench to behind the
I have a list of different basic job “titles” or areas that peaked my interest (though one of them is basically my “comfort zone”), and they are:
Other than the R&D Scientist/Manager–which still will have a learning curve mainly for techniques, the other positions are all outside my comfort zone for numerous reasons including:
Not being at the bench–with my current position I do miss being at the bench, but I can’t say for certain if I miss it because I love it, or if I miss it because it is where I’m most comfortable at.
Writing heavy positions. This isn’t to say that I don’t like writing–but grad school and my first (and to a smaller extent my second) post doctoral position dulled my enthusiasm for writing. This is something that I’m trying to get back–starting with writing in my journal, creative writing, and working my way up to summarizing journal articles (to then hopefully write a mini-review on a topic).
Number heavy positions. Dealing with numbers really isn’t the problem–I would just need to learn statistics, and then brush up on basically everything business related (finances and economics for example).
While I’m not looking at positions that are constantly on the road (as I know there are at least two to four different positions that travel at least four days a week), there are one or two that might have some travel time. Currently I want to limit the amount of travel, since when I do move–I’ll have my cat with me (and then I’m planning within six to nine months after settling of getting another kitten or puppy), and that means I don’t want to be paying a large amount of money every month for a pet sitter.
So as you can see—I have numerous directions I can chose
from, I just need to decide which are the most interesting and which ones could
possibly overlap and make it an easy transition into the second, or third
industry positions (as now a days—people may or may not stick with the same
company for more than say three to five years).
I almost consider all the positions (other than the R&D
scientist/manager) to be some sort of data analyst position—which would be
interesting in their own way—but I’m not sure if I want to be stuck at a desk
all day or not (but this is something else entirely to deal with). The R&D position would be staying
somewhat within my comfort zone. I’m saying somewhat—because I know that there
are technical skills that I’m lacking, but would be able to pick up fairly
quickly on the job. The position is listed, because currently I do miss doing
actual research at the bench—I’m just not sure if it is something that I want
to continue doing for the next thirty or thirty-five years.
All of the positions have a learning curve—there are
technical skills, coding, subjects (such as marketing, statistics, and
economics for example), and possible foreign languages to learn (or brush up
So how can I go about paring down the list? Well, for that to happen I will also need to make headway with the other two points on the triangle (what do I want to be an “expert” in and where do I want to work/live (biotech hubs and the specific companies)—and then hopefully work on getting some informational
interviews with people to hear first hand about these positions.
In addition I have listed in another journal things that I
can start brushing up on (or learning) that would help with transitioning into
the different positions, and may also help get me back into enjoying learning
something new and pushing myself outside of my comfort zone.
This is also going back to my issue with time management—I
know that there is enough time in the day to brush up on one or two things, and
that I can go between different things (say have a M/W/F schedule & then a
T/Th schedule—just like college)—I just need to clean up a work space, install
some time management apps—so I don’t spend all day going onto social media, and
sit down and get stuff going.
That then brings me to the second area to figure out: my niche. So how do I decide on what to be an “expert” on and what to be a “jack-of-all-trades” on? If I had to pick a couple of skills/areas that I would enjoy doing frequently they would be the following:
I think that knowing how to do “old fashion” molecular
cloning is important, only because I’m sure there will be a time when money
runs out for a lab and they will still need that one last plasmid to get the
grant—if someone knows how to do it the “old fashion” way—they can put in the
grant application; if no one knows—the lab folds and closes. This is something
that one might not have to do much of in the industry setting (as time is
money, and companies may rather just pay another company some money to make the
plasmid for them), but I do feel like it is something that any molecular
biologist should at least know the theory behind (and if possible, have tried
their hands at it).
else, I think this would be a good subject to design an entire series of blog
posts around, and maybe even a small online course.
The recombinant protein expression and purification fits in
with that aspect—because you have to put your gene/protein of interest into a
plasmid to be able to study it. Proteins and small molecules are what makes the
cell run—knowing how to study them, how to target them (in cases of cancer and
other diseases) for treatment is something that I think I’d enjoy doing. There
are also numerous technical skills that I would hopefully be able to pick up as
well doing this; though with this area—there are so many different proteins,
that again this would be an duel edge sword—being an “expert” in one or two,
and then a “jack-of-all-trades” in a couple of other types of proteins.
Cell biology fits in with both the above two topics and the
last one (small RNA biology) because you have to understand how the cell
operates to be able to understand how to start to manipulate it. This is a
subject that I would need to brush up on, as I only took one or two classes in
college, and while my dissertation topic touched on it a little—it only touched
on a very small aspect of it (post-transcriptional modifications).
Small RNA biology is an area that can span different
industrial sectors such as biomedical, pharmaceuticals, and agricultural. This
is also a growing field, with more being discovered about these small molecules
that play a large role in the cell. Having done small RNA biology with both
plants and animals, I can go either direction, biomedical/pharmaceutical or
agricultural, and probably be happy doing the research at the bench.
So these four areas can probably be condensed down into two
areas: molecular biology and cell biology that I feel like I could be an
“expert” and a “jack-of-all-trades” in at the same time (as both areas
encompass numerous different subfields). The other two areas that I would feel
more comfortable having a “jack-of-all-trades” or “minor” expertise in would be
biochemistry and chemistry. As I’m typing this, I’m finding it funny that I’m
willing to consider myself an “expert” in molecular biology, and an
“jack-of-all-trades” or “minor” expert in biochemistry (since both my
undergraduate and graduate degrees were in biochemistry and molecular
biology)—it has only taken me about nine years to figure out which subfield I’m
more comfortable with compared to the other.
So, while I’ve chosen the areas (and to some extent the
subfields)—I’m still going to need to spend time reading papers, and giving
myself a refresher in certain subjects (namely chemistry, a little biochemistry
(all those pathways), and a little cell biology). I need to design a tracking
system, or something that will make it interesting and fun so that I don’t lose
interest after a week or so—plus I will design a schedule to where I focus on
only say two “subjects” on any particular day (pretend I’m back in college).
So I have some idea of the direction(s) I’m probably willing
to take; ideas of what I wouldn’t mind becoming an “expert” versus an
“jack-of-all-trades” in—which then leads to the third point—where do I want to
relocate to, and then which companies within that region am I going to look
into further. This is actually a two-part problem: location to live and company
to work for. I’ve realized that I’m going to be going about this issue in a
different manner than most people: I’m going to first focus on narrowing down
the biotech hubs that I’m willing to relocate to, and then focus on narrowing
down the companies within the biotech hubs that I want to work for.
So when it comes to choosing a biotech hub, I already have several different criteria that will have to be met:
The cost of
living has to be reasonable. I know that moving to a larger city, rent is going
to be relatively high, but I don’t want to be paying an outrageous amount of
money for a small studio or one bedroom apartment.
to be a decent public transportation system in the city. This is currently an
absolute must have, as I don’t drive (and until I work thorough my anxiety
issues associated with it—I won’t be driving). So that is one thing the city
has to have—public transportation. I don’t mind riding buses, trains, or both
to get to work—you do what you have to do, with what you have.
to be things to do within the city (both free and hopefully also fairly
inexpensive). With a transition into industry, this will hopefully mean that I
won’t have to be working on weekends (though the occasional one is perfectly
fine), and I can spend the time exploring my new city and the surround areas.
That also means that there should be ways of getting around the outlying areas
as well (for example—Boston serves as a hub and you can take a bus almost
anywhere within a four hour drive).
there needs to be a decent number of companies within the area. I realize that
I may not spend the rest of my career working for the company that I start
with—but if I’m going to be changing companies (for whatever reason, say five
to ten years after starting with company one) I don’t want to be moving
cross-country, or even between states (if I can avoid it). The move to and from
Boston for my first postdoctoral position soured me on long distance moving
(moves are expensive, and time consuming [packing, arranging movers, finding an
apartment/condo/house, setting up utilities, getting your stuff delivered, and
then unpacking], and as far as I’m concerned—an all around headache).
comes to trying to pick the companies, this will be in part dependent on which
direction I chose to go in, what I’ve “branded” myself an “expert” in, and of
course the city. I know that companies all have their own culture, values, and
visions—so the best way of narrowing down the companies will be to setup informational
interviews. These will start first online (or over the phone), and then when I
have an solid idea of the place(s)—hopefully in person informational
interviews, when I take some networking trips in the spring.
So there it is—my “movement paralysis” layout, and each
little circle opened up to reveal another “knot” that needs to be worked out in
order to move forward. I’m going to be doing this a little slower than others
might—but by doing it slow, I can hopefully avoid falling into any major panic
attacks or introducing a new “movement paralysis” stop.
First things to do: clean up my room and design a work area
at home (probably not my desk—which is also currently serving as my dresser),
install some time management apps on the computer (to keep me from surfing
social media sites during the day—especially once I’m on my reboot break), and
design a schedule for the “class” work I need to start working on. In addition,
I’ll be working a little on it during the week at work (when I have a little
down time in between other things), such as reading business/tech pages to
start brushing up on the business side of science.