So 2019 has come to a close, and now it’s time to reflect
back on the year (with its ups and downs, hills and valleys).
This was the year that I decided that I needed to do some
type of major shakeup career wise—this wasn’t to say that I was totally unhappy
with my job—something needed to change though. I had decided that I would
hopefully either transition into an industry position, or I would resign my
position, take some time off to re-center myself and then refocus on my job
search. I ended up going with option number two—my “reboot break” started
shortly after the Thanksgiving holiday.
I’ve realized over the past few months that I’ve more or
less been in a “coasting” mode for the past couple of years—never really
thinking of where I want to be in five or ten years, just focusing on trying to
get through the day and the week to the weekend. It’s hard to figure out the
next direction to go in, when you’re stuck in the weeds with nothing but a
slightly broken oar to propel yourself—you don’t get very far.
I’ve also realized that I’ve been trying to focus on too
many different areas at once (health/fitness, finances, moving my career
forward, and trying to find time to do crafts to balance things out), that I’m
going to try to focus on just two to four areas (health/fitness and moving my
career forward are tied for number one, and then it will probably be
personal/professional development (tied for number two, and tied into both
areas at number one), and then some time for crafts.
This was I can probably set up an monthly calendar easier
with just those “three” areas instead of considering them four to five
different areas. This should also mean that I have more ideas for blog topics
throughout 2020 as well (which is one area that I felt that I didn’t push
forward enough throughout the year).
In terms of health and fitness—I’m slowly making my way back
to a routine that works for me. I will probably stick with the workouts
provided by Beachbody, but figure out the best nutrition plan on my own. I know
that I have a major sweet tooth, and instead of depriving myself (and ending up
binge eating sweets), I allow myself some sweets and try to balance it out with
more fruits and vegetables throughout the day. I’m pretty sure that there will
be more posts on nutrition and fitness throughout 2020 as well, as I work to
get into the best shape of my life (I’m thinking of some trip later in the year
that would require me to be in better physical condition than I am currently).
We also adopted a puppy back in May shortly after mother’s
day. My mom decided that it had been long enough since losing her dog, that she
was willing to get a puppy. So we adopted a boxer mix, renamed her Rolex and
it’s been a crazy ride ever since. Then basically a week before Christmas, I
decided that I really wanted a puppy (I know that I will never be able to
replace Chewi), so I went with my brother to the animal shelter and adopted a
blue heeler/collie/shepherd mix. Now we have a period of adjustment—Rolex is a
little jealous of the puppy (mainly the amount of attention that I’m giving
him)—but I chose the right name for him—Chaos (since I was getting him right
before the holidays—I knew that I was going to be bring chaos into the house).
Now, as I start looking forward again on my job search—the position/location
will also need to be puppy friendly (nearby parks and so forth).
In terms of personal development I managed to read nineteen
different books (though several of them were challenge books—where you pick a
topic and try to work on it for a month or so). Several of the books related to
finances (mine are okay—which is why I’m able to do the reboot break right
now), decluttering (something that I really need to do—both for myself and ease
my parents into it as well), and then just some good old fashion self-care
(reboot break, and being reminded that I shouldn’t be waiting for others to
give me a ‘permission slip’ to live my life). I’m hoping that in 2020, I double
the number of books that read in terms of both personal and professional
I had gotten back into doing oracle/tarot card readings for
a good portion of the year (quit doing them the last few months), and realized
yet again my pulling back was due in part to me trying to fit in to molds that
I don’t belong (worry about what prospective employers might think if they come
across my instagram account). But I was reminded with reading a couple of books
last month that I shouldn’t be waiting on a ‘permission slip’ from others—it’s
my life and I doubt that I would be wanting to work for any company that
doesn’t value everyone’s spirituality.
I had wanted to travel a little during 2019, but those plans
never came to fruition—either due to not having enough vacation time earned,
the weather (one major “fear” earlier this year was being stranded somewhere
due to the weather and losing money since I wouldn’t be working & would
have used up all my vacation time), or just not being able to decide where I
wanted to go.
Hopefully in 2020 there will be more travel—both for mental
health (since I’ve realized it has been over a year since I’ve taken a
vacation) and networking/job search/hopeful job interviews, or a combination of
the two types.
So while there was some change in 2019—there wasn’t as much
as I’d hoped for—but I did manage to plant the seeds for change (namely in
quitting my job) to occur in 2020. As we head into a new year and decade I need
to remember that for 2020 I’m going to focus on “grow (th)”, “change”,
“achievement(s)”, and “success”.
And remember: Progress over perfection. I’m also going to
remember to “evaluate the people in [my] life; then promote, demote, or
terminate. [I’m] the CEO of my life”.