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Reflecting on 2022, planning for 2023: Sagittarius New Moon Goals

So the moon entered the Sagittarius constellation yesterday, marking the eleventh new moon for 2022. That means there is a week left in November (today is Thanksgiving), and then it’s December…and then 2023.

The SARS-CoV2 virus isn’t going to be going away…it is here to stay (unfortunately)—but there are vaccines, and booster shots—so folks, go get your vaccine (or booster), try to continue practicing social distancing where you can—and wear a damn mask in the store, it’s also flu season.

So what are some of the things that one can do during the time of Sagittarius new moon?

Looking at the book “Moonology: working with the magic of lunar cycles” by Yasmin Boland, you can:

  1. Get away–travel
  2. Study
  3. Search for meaning
  4. Laugh
  5. Be grateful

Well, I’m slowly starting to research/plan a trip for sometime in either mid-to-late 2023 or 2024. Since the SARS-CoV2 virus isn’t going away—I’ll just wear my mask when traveling…

In terms of ‘searching for meaning’—I’m viewing that as figuring out what I want to be doing with my life and where I would like to be in say fifteen to twenty years. This is a slow work in progress…hopefully making a little headway this coming week.

I’m starting to ‘study’ again—I have numerous different e-courses that I need to be working through. I just need to buy a couple of notebooks—I’m ‘old-fashion’ and I learn better when I actually writing things down.

With the moon entering into Sagittarius, this is also my second house or the “cash, property, and values” zone. I’m totally not in the holiday mood this year—I mean today is ‘turkey’ day, and then we’re just over a month from Christmas…and I’m in a totally bah-humbug type of mood currently.

This year has currently been a year of ‘whiplash’ with various things going on—and I’m heading back towards burnout. I’m realizing this and will be putting together a plan to hopefully stop the backwards slide in its ‘tracks’.

One thing I’m aiming for in 2023—starting to live a much more minimalistic life. I have three boxes of shirts (so far) that I need to donate, numerous DVDs to sell back, and crafts to create/gift/sell. Anyway, back to the second house—the cash, property, and value zone.

So some of the things that you can do during this time include (again, according to “Moonology: working with the magic of the lunar cycles”):

  1. Start a savings account
  2. Pay your bills, taxes, debt, etc
  3. Hire an accountant if it’s all too much
  4. Showcase your talents
  5. Get a neck and shoulder massage
  6. Invest in an expensive neck cream

My savings account is there—just not as ‘large’ as I would like (but hey—I’ve been on a reboot break for the past few years and surviving off of it), and I’m working on getting the bills/debt paid off. There is still no reason to hire an accountant—since I’m still currently unemployed.

In terms of ‘showcasing’ my talents—I’m in the process of starting the second blog/website (dedicated to science/medical/health education/communications), in addition to brainstorming ideas on how to showcase the various crafts that I’ve been working on as well.

  1. Develop a ‘fluid’ daily/weekly/monthly schedule for getting various things done
  2. Reflect on 2022 (to-date), and determine what went well, what didn’t go so well, and start planning for 2023 (and beyond)
  3. Put in the order for the numerous journals and notebooks needed for 2023
  4. Finish setting up the dedicated work station, craft station, and semi-dedicated meditation area in the bedroom

While I managed to accomplish numerous goals over the past few months—I also realize that my inner critic/imposter syndrome has also derailed me several times as well (not to mention life in general)…but I need to just keep reminding myself: ‘progress over perfection’. In addition to not taking to heart the negative opinions of others.

While 2022 hasn’t been going the way I wanted, hopefully the last week of November will be mellower than the previous months have been.

What are you doing to ensure that 2023 starts on the right foot?

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Goals for the July Super Full Moon: Content creation, reading, & meditation

So the moon will be entering the Capricorn constellation tonight (or possibly last night depending on where you are in the world), and it will mark the seventh full moon of the year, but it is also a super moon, and is also known as the buck full moon. We only have 18 days left in the month, and then five months left in 2022.

I have various ideas of what I would like to do professionally (such as science/medical/health communications, creating (and selling) e-courses, e-books, workbooks (and so forth), creating crafts (jewelry, cross-stitching, scarfs, afghans and so forth) to sell on etsy, educational consulting, professional coaching, blogging, setting up a podcast and YouTube channel, and photography)…now I just need to make the ‘map’ that will blend all of them together (honoring my strengths and values).

So looking to book “Moonology: working with the magic of lunar cycles” by Yasmin Boland—what are the questions that can be asked during the Capricorn full moon??

Have I been ambitious to the point of ruthlessness?

Have I been obsessed with work to the detriment of my personal life?

Have I been hard-headed, hard-nosed, or just too hard on others?

I have allowed my head to overrule my heart?

Have I been planning my life enough? Or have I been planning it too much?

If I were to number the above questions one-to-five, my answers would be as followed:

  1. No, I haven’t been ambitious to the point of ruthlessness. There is enough success to go around, and not everyone is going to try to be a science/medical communicator is who also creating molecular cloning workbooks, jewelry, and launching a self-developed coffee table photography book. Also being ambitious to the point of ruthlessness—is also a sign poor leadership, and people being severely toxic (and I’ve been trying to avoid those types of people the past couple of years).
  2. We’re still in a pandemic (or epidemic)…basically we’re still having to deal with the damn SARS-CoV2 virus…therefore I really don’t have much of a personal life (in regards to being out in public). While I would say that I’m becoming ‘slightly’ obsessed (I do need to get things up and running) in terms of my career—I’m not obsessed to the point of ignoring other aspects of my life.
  3. Nope, I haven’t been hardheaded, hard-nosed or too hard on others. Again, I’m still basically self-isolating…I have gotten the vaccine (but since I don’t go places—I haven’t gotten the booster), and I just haven’t had the need to be around others (in-person). Also I’m trying to stay ‘removed’ from discussions that will probably not lead anywhere.
  4. I’m going to stick with last years answer: In what context? Truthfully, there haven’t been that may decisions to make that would have been a head versus heart type of decision.
  5. No, I have not been planning my life enough. Part of the problem—I either set deadlines that are ‘too soon’ or ‘too far out’ in terms of the goal, and I haven’t quite figured out the best ways of breaking those really big goals into doable smaller goals. I’m also still making my way up the ‘staircase’ from the pits of ‘burnout’. I think I’m close to the third ‘level’…finding enjoyment again in areas I’d forgotten (such as reading, doing research [not at the bench], writing, and brainstorming). Will be working on those long-term goals and figuring out how to make the shorter ones not so ‘unattainable’.

So the Capricorn full moon is also going to be traveling through my third house—or the communication zone. This zone deals with both communications with people that you would see on a day-to-day basis (more or less): friends, co-workers, and possibly family; but it also deals with other things as well: to-do lists, self-expression, and so forth. While it is a time for communications—the communications are best done when people are in “good” moods—you don’t want things to spiral out of control and a disagreement started because someone took something you said the wrong way.

Currently, I’m not in the middle of any type of major disagreement with people that I talk to on a day-to-day basis, which since I’m still self-isolating are basically just my parents (and my younger brother every so often). I’m trying to avoid getting into ‘disagreements’ on-line (usually by just hiding the posts or un-following the particular person).

I’m finding my to-do lists easier to keep up with (especially if I write up them up the night before), and am working on the editorial calendars.

So what are my goals for the Capricorn full moon period? They will include:

  1. Get back into some type of intentional movement routine (lifting weights, doing yoga, dancing in the room)…just something…
  2. Work on creating a new long-term goal list. Since I’ve listed out numerous ideas at the being of this post in terms of what I’d like to do career wise—I now need to figure out how to weave them together, plus have goals for other areas of life: health/fitness, finances, personal/professional development, spirituality, living space, and crafts/hobbies).
  3. Continuing on my ‘personal/professional development’ journey, by starting (and finishing) the following:
    • Continue working on my ‘molecular cloning’ writing project (short posts on LinkedIn, and fleshing them out more for the blog)
    • Reading: ‘Dinosaurs Rediscovered: The Scientific Revolution in Paleontology’ by Michael J. Benton’; ‘INNERCISE’ by John Assaraf; and ‘HUSH MONEY’ by Jacquie Abram
    • Finishing up the podcast course, and starting a writing (or possibly business) course
    • Evening meditations
    • Start another small needlepoint project
    • Restart my 90-day content research/development project

Basically, I’m hitting ‘restart’ on certain areas of things (content research/development for example), and also taking the pause and really think on long-term goals (knowing full well, that they’ll be evolving as soon as I write them down). By relearning how to embrace my learner’s mindset (along with the values of knowledge, creativity, and curiosity)–I’ll figure out the best way to develop the fluid goals.

What is one goal you’re setting this Capricorn season?

Namaste….

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Cancer New Moon Goals: Utilizing the 90-day Content Research Project & Reading

So the moon will be transitioning through the Cancer constellation tonight—marking the sixth new moon of the year; and somehow there are only two more days left in June, and then 2022 is halfway over.

That means I should be spending a good chunk of the next few days, reflecting on the past six months, the goals I’d set and whether or not I’ve reached them…and whether or not I’d be reaching them by the end of 2022. As of Friday, there will only be 184 days left in 2022…

If one looks to the book ‘Moonology: working with the magic of lunar cycles’ by Yasmin Boland, there are various things that one can focus on during the Cancer new moon. They include:

  1. Family time (checking in with relatives)
  2. Banishing insecurity
  3. Get in touch with your caring nurturing side
  4. Review your goals
  5. Take a hot bath

Three out of the five things seem straightforward (family time, reviewing goals, and taking a hot bath). I probably should try to get in touch with various family members (at least through social media), since our paths really don’t cross that much and travel is still currently out of the question (at least for me). I have plenty of family time with my immediate family (since I still live at home and we see my younger brother quite frequently now that he is back in town).

The other two items (banishing insecurity and getting in touch with your caring and nurturing side) may not seem so straightforward, and may actually require more work to begin with.

Since I like what I wrote last year, I thought I’d ‘recycle’ my thoughts on banishing insecurity and getting in touch with ones caring nurturing side.

How I picture these areas:

Caring and nurturing side:

In terms of getting in touch with your caring and nurturing side—basically this means that you’re going to try a little harder this month in terms of self-care. You’re going to try to rephrase negative self-talk into more positive self-talk, you’re going to take time to focus on your breath, and you are going to be more gentle and understanding with yourself.

Banishing Insecurity:

In terms of trying to banish insecurity—this means being honest with yourself in terms of different areas of your life. Do you feel insecure in an area? Fearful? Or are you being overly possessive of things? The best work is to try to identify and work at getting rid of barriers in different areas of life (if possible).

Where do I feel ‘insecure’?

  1. Oral communications (talking in front of people)
  2. Written communications (sharing my writing)

How to work through the ‘insecurities’?

  1. Setting up more coffee/water zoom and/or Google chats
  2. Starting a podcast (or just recording myself talking about various things)
  3. Figure out where I can ‘publish’ different styles of writing (and then work on those projects)

If one also looks to see what house the moon is moving through, it will give you a few other things to also take into perspective. For me, the moon is moving through my ninth house (or my big picture zone). This is all about adventure, travel, and personal development.

While a lot of people will say we’re in the epidemic stage of the virus—I’m still calling it a pandemic, and will still be doing mostly ‘virtual’ traveling (Google meet-ups, zoom meet-ups and so forth). As I mentioned last year: we live in a digital world, so there are others ways of ‘traveling’—reading, communicating with others (email, online meetings, phone calls), and writing (creative, poetry, and journaling). So what are some of the things that one can do in regards to their ninth house?

  1. Find a way to explore the world
  2. Read those books you know you should be reading
  3. Do a personal development course
  4. Manifest a new spiritual teacher
  5. Think about what you have faith in–and what you don’t
  6. Make a cyber pal on the other side of the world
  7. Have something you’ve written published

So it seems fitting that the universe is pushing personal development again—I was just talking with a couple of people about this and how I have a bad habit of trying to throw everything on the calendar to do all within a week—instead of spreading out the tasks. I’m still working on ‘slowing down’ and processing what I’ve learned and also figuring out how to share it with the world.

So what are a few goals that I can set during this time?

  1. ‘Explore the world’–do research over different countries, geographical landmarks, historical landmarks, (items from my ’90-day content challenge creation project
  2. Reading–finish the follow books: ‘Unlike a Boss: Positive People Leadership Skills You Wish Your Manager Had by Alexander ANdrews; A Short History of Humanity: A New Hisotry of Old Europe by Johannes Krause & Thomas Trappe; and Dinosaurs Rediscovered: The Scientific Revolution in Paleontology by M.J. Benton
  3. Start (and hopefully finish) at least one personal/professional development course
  4. Start participating in the 100 days of coding challenge that starts July 1st (and runs through Oct 8)
  5. Work on getting back into my evening oracle card drawings and sitting quietly

I originally had the courses listed out (and will copy them out into a journal)–but I also developed a major anxiety attack (I’d say an EF4) due to at first putting too many courses down and thinking I could finish them all within a two-to-four week period (I mean I could if I didn’t take any time to reflect and try to implement what I had ‘learned’).

In addition I will also try to be working on developing my personal/professional development plan (and not try to throw everything onto it and assume that I can accomplish everything in the quickest amount of time).

Overall, the biggest goals for this period will be writing, self-reflection, and pushing myself a little more each day to get out of my comfort zone. Staying within the comfort zone won’t help me get a remote position or start a freelance business—all it will do is keep me within the lab…it’s time to start breaking out…

And always remember: Progress over perfection.

What is one of your Cancer goals?

Namaste…

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Leo Full Moon goals: working on various calendars, crafts, and meditation

So last night marked the second full moon of 2022. We’re six and half weeks into the year, and I’m still debating on whether I like it or not…We’re also about a month away from entering year three of the pandemic, so I guess we need to retire the phrase ‘avoid it like the plague’—since we haven’t been able to do that for the past few years.

I’ve also come to the conclusion that I need to start writing daily (even if I don’t post everything)—just as a way of starting to get out of this ‘funk’ that I’ve found myself in the past six weeks or so. That has actually been my biggest problem—looking at the computer and not wanting to do anything. I’m thinking that the best way of getting over the ‘funk’ is to do a little work each day (plus figure out ways of ‘blocking’ various social sites so I don’t mindless scroll through them). Oops, sorry for the mini-rant, now back to the Leo Full Moon.

What are some questions to reflect on during the first few days of the full moon? According to “Moonology: working with the magic of the lunar cycles” by Yasmin Boland:

Have I been too self-centered, egotistical, or proud?

Have I been treating the people around me like minions?

Have I been arrogant, vain, pushy, or pompous?

Have I been expressing myself creatively enough?

Have I shown myself enough self-love?

If I were to number the above questions 1-5, my answers would be as followed:

  1. Lets see—we’re about to enter year three of the pandemic. Therefore, I can safely say that I’m not being self-centered or egotistical about anything. I am proud that I’m surviving this whole crazy roller coaster without having any type of major mental breakdowns. I won’t say that it has been a walk in the park—I’m still struggling with a few things, but I’m surviving.
  2. Nope, I haven’t been treating the people around me like minions. I live at home with my parents still—there are no minions here.
  3. Again, nope I haven’t been arrogant, vain, pushy, or pompous. This is also because again—I haven’t really been out of the house for three years (with a few exemptions of getting the weekend paper, an occasional walk, or voting).
  4. No, I have not been expressing myself creatively enough lately. I’ve actually been spending way too much time playing silly games (such as Farmville and Klondike)—though I’ve deleted both off the kindle (yet again). We’ll see if the ‘deletes’ last longer this time around. I’m actually thinking of starting a new cross-stitch project or possibly some doodling (I bought some drawing books before Christmas), over the coming week. Once the weather straightens up, hopefully there will be a monthly (if not weekly) walk at Boomer Lake with the camera.
  5. Again, this one is a no in that I haven’t been showing myself enough self-love. While I feel like I’ve come a ways from where I was at the end of 2019—I’m still far from being totally out of the ‘burnout’ hole I found myself free-falling in. It is a back-and-forth ‘dance’ between feeling like I’m dealing with various things, and wanting to hide from the world. I know that I still need to find more productive ways of dealing with the stress/anxiety, negative self-talk, and inner critic/imposter syndrome. Self-care/self-love can come in different ‘forms’ and I’ve realized that I need to develop ways/forms that doesn’t result in me spending money on books or silly games. So, yes—I still need to work on improving my health: physical, mental, spiritual, emotional, and social (all of which have been up and down since the pandemic started).

With focusing on self-care/love, this will include doing intentional movements (anything from lifting weights, to walking, to cardio and yoga), meditating at night, doing a oracle/tarot card reading, starting to listening to podcasts again, reading, and just trying to figure out what works for me.

Looking at my chart—the Leo full moon is going through my 10th house, which is also my career zone. So, with it going through my career zone—last year I stated that I was still technically on my reboot break, and this year I’m starting to move forward with the second half of my life.

I decided towards the end of last year that I was going to focus on finding a remote writing/data analysis position and at the same time try to build a freelance writing business (copywriting and content writing). I figured that going down these paths would allow me to combine my core values (learning/knowledge, spirituality/inner harmony/peace, creativity/curiosity, and evolution/growth/transformation) with my strengths (learner, intellection, input, achiever, deliberative/ideation/arranger, creativity, curiosity, and critical thinking), while also improving some of my ‘weaknesses’ (such as communications, significance, and bravery).

So what are my goals for the Leo Full Moon?

Develop an intentional movement calendar (weight lifting, cardio, yoga, and walking). Remembering that this is my health journey and no one else’s—therefore the intentional movement should be things that I enjoy doing.

Develop a schedule for working through various courses and assignments to move forward with the goal of transitioning to a remote writing/data analysis position and hopefully setting up a freelance writing/blogging business.

Spend time working on crafts (start a new cross-stitch project, doodle, color, make jewelry, and when the weather warms up—photography time up at Boomer Lake)

Evening oracle card reading, straighten up my meditation altar, and designing a new meditation ‘area’ (one that can be easily setup and dismantled each evening).

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Updating my comfort diagram: reflections & planning for the fall

So I spent a good chunk of last week working on my 3rd comfort diagram. I’d been introduced to the concept about six months ago by one of my coaches during a zoom call (I’d been more or less rambling on what I thought my future plans were).

I’d decided that I was going to do a new version of it every three months, but also introduce a new zone between the comfort and stretch zone–the bounce zone.

I’d chosen the name ‘bounce zone’, because I didn’t feel like there were things that I’d been working on from the stretch or risk zones that could be moved all the way into the comfort zone (i.e. I didn’t feel like they’d become fully ingrained habits yet).

3rd rendition of my comfort zone diagram. Growth is being made, everything is back and forth.

You might notice that I still have blogging within the bounce zone. This is because at times I feel like I have ‘writer’s block’ and my inner critic/imposter syndrome pops in every so often and I end up not posting as frequently as I had originally planned.

As I was working on the diagram, I decided I would add one or two things into the stretch zone:

Intuitive eating, which is something I’ve been working on for the past few months. I have it in the stretch zone only because there are a couple of points that I’m still slightly struggling with:

(1) Eating enough protein during the day (especially at breakfast)

(2) Savoring the meals/snacks (i.e. taking more than ten to fifteen minutes to each the meal), and finally

(3) figuring out what type of intentional movements I enjoy doing, figuring out how to incorporate them into my day and then ignoring the rest. I know it may look funny putting movement (or exercise) in with nutrition, but they’re tied together in society.

The second thing I added to the stretch zone is learning more about UX (user experience), as a possible freelance/remote direction to go in.

I’ve actually completed a couple of courses over the past six month where I learned the basics on clinical research and intellectual property. I’m currently keeping them in the ‘stretch zone’ as I haven’t quite figured out how to tie them into the direction that I’m thinking of going (which is freelance/remote/contract focusing first on writing, and then possibly adding in data analysis, project and product management at a later point). Both topics were interesting, but I also realized that I probably wouldn’t want to go in either direction full time (in terms of clinical research–unless I was at the bench, I possibly would have to travel between clinical research sites frequently, and to become a patent agent would require passing the patent bar exam).

While I would like to possibly travel (depending on when the various variants of the SARS-CoV2 virus are contained), I don’t want to constantly travel for work, and currently I don’t want to go in a direction that would require a large amount of money and a standardized test.

But what has changed over the last three months?

Cross-stitching and science writing have bounced their way into the bounce zone, while time management and refreshing a foreign language have bounced their way back into the stretch zone.

I’ve realized that I enjoy doing more abstract design and creation (in other words not having to follow a set pattern), and my first cross-stitch project is actually a continuous circle with a few bumps in the road made up of different colors. I’m going to see how many different colors it takes to fill up the fabric, and not worry about little mistakes that I may make along the way.

I’m slowly making my way into science writing again. I managed to land a volunteer medical content writing position with a online Canadian magazine (Medical News Bulletin) last month. While it is a volunteer position (and they own the ‘rights’ to my work), I am learning the ins and outs of science communication for the lay audience. Hopefully then, this will flow over to the blog and I will be getting out at least one science related blog post a month (and possibly one to two science related pages a month as well).

I’m also trying to focus a little more on my spiritual health as well over the past few months, and it has bounced (along with oracle cards) to sit along side meditation in the bounce zone. This has been an area that has been bouncing between the stretch and the bounce zones the past couple of months (and will probably still bounce the next couple of months). I’ve always been fascinated and intrigued by ancient cultures and practices more so than contemporary practices–and have felt like an outsider growing up due to those interests.

Over the past month, I’ve picked up quite a few non-fiction books related to ancient cultures and practices for two reasons: one because they interest me, and I actually have the time to indulge in those interests; and two–they may serve as ‘reference’ books for a couple of short story ideas that I have bouncing around in my head.

Various non-fiction books that I’ve bought over the past month

I like Graham Hancock–I have his book ‘Underworld: The Mysterious Origins of Civilization’ in my storage unit. I bought this book back in the late 1990s after I finished reading the Egyptian Book of the Dead that I got for Christmas one year. The others were bought because I’m either fascinated with the civilization (Mayan) or feel like they could be good ‘reference’ books for short story ideas.

My time management has been slipping for the past month or more, due in part to the warmer weather (so I want to be sitting outside more often than I do during other times of the year, and preferably without my computer), and my anxiety has been spiking due to the rise in the number of SARS-CoV2 cases due to delta variant running rampant through the country.

So, I’m going to have to just ensure that I have various time management apps up and running on both my computer and phone (and possibly add in the different news sites to the ‘blocked for the day’ list)–because if I can’t see the news, I can’t stress out over it and have my anxiety spike (yes, I know that doing this is showcasing my privilege–but sometime protecting ones mental health means embracing certain things that I would usually try not to embrace).

Refreshing the foreign language also bounced back into the stretch zone for almost identical reasons as time management, with the addition of my inner critic/imposter syndrome poking their heads out and ridiculing me on my progress.

Therefore, the next three months are going to be focused on:

(1) Time management,

(2) learning (aiming for spending at least three and a half hours a week working through various e-courses; this breaks down to roughly thirty minutes a day),

(3) reading (aiming to read non-fiction for another three and a half hours a week (again, another thirty minutes a day),

(4) craft time (also three and a half hours a week at minimum; thirty minutes a day, while focusing on cross-stitching, jewelry design/creation, photography, and doodling), and

(5) writing (this will be the most varied area with different projects, but aiming for four to six thousand words a week).

Progress is being made–writing is slowly becoming an enjoyable habit again (after years of dreading having to do it), meditation at night is helping with anxiety (for the most part), and I’m going to work on incorporating it more often during the day. The staircase out of the pit of burnout does seem to go on forever, but I only need to take it a step at a time, and I can sit with a book on a stair whenever I need to catch my breath.

Question time–what are your favorite e-course sites and subjects?

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The Pink Super Full Moon: Scorpio goals moving forward

So we’re heading into April’s full moon tonight, and it is also the second ‘super full moon’ (aka the pink super moon) of the year. I wrote in the ‘Libra Full Moon Review’ how I felt like everything was starting to ‘speed-up’ again after going so slow last year–but at the same time things are still in ‘slow-motion’. Everyone wants everything opened and back to ‘normal’–the only problem with that is that the old ‘normal’ is how we ended up in this damn global pandemic. Yes, there are vaccines against the SARS-CoV2 virus, but they only go so far in protection. I was talking with a friend last week and we were discussing ‘herd immunity’ and who knows what the actual percentage is and if we’ll ever reach it–the only reason why I say that is that it has been shown you can catch SARS-CoV2 again after having it (and it may end up being worse the second time around) and even if you have the vaccine–there is a small chance you can catch it still (and even a smaller chance that you could still possibly die from SARS-CoV2 related complications). I think that the virus is here to stay, and as a global society–we need to start figuring out a new ‘normal’.

Anyway, back to the April full moon and moving forward trying to find/define both my new ‘normal’ and what it is going to be looking like.

The April full moon is going to be transitioning through the Scorpio constellation. Therefore if one looks to the book ‘Moonology’ there are several questions that one can reflect on during the next few days, and they are:

Have I been jealous, vengeful, suspicious, or otherwise behaved toxically?

Have I been living out of fear rather than joy?

Have I been brooding and dark: focusing on the negative rather than the positive?

Have I been cruel and cunning?

Am I have the sex I need to feel good about myself (of course some people need no sex at all to feel good about themselves)?

If I were to number the above questions 1-5, my answers would be as follows:

  1. While I haven’t been acting jealous, vengeful, or suspicious towards anyone, I will admit to behaving slightly toxic towards myself. I realized last month, that I have been allowing the ‘bad habits’ of my inner critic/imposter syndrome to have full reign and I really didn’t get nearly as much accomplished as I would have liked. I realized that acknowledging my inner critic/imposter syndrome is the first step in dealing with them–I also need to actively work at dealing with the ‘bad habits’ that pop up whenever I feel/realize that I’m really stepping into the stretch/risk zones and out of the comfort zone.
  2. If I’m being totally honest–yes, I have been living out of fear rather than joy. This is tied into issues with my inner critic/imposter syndrome. Instead of figuring out ways of dealing with the various ‘problems’ as my mind makes them up, I allowed my inner critic/imposter syndrome to use them to reel me back into my comfort zone. Something again to work on this coming month.
  3. Well, again if I’m totally honest–I probably have been focusing a little too much on the negative rather than the positive. This is mainly due to the fact that I’m still trying to work out what I want to do moving forward. While I’ve semi-decided on possibly freelancing, remote, or contract work (or a mix of the three)–deciding on how to start is usually where all the negative thoughts creep in. Again, the problem has been acknowledged–I just need to start deciding on how to deal with the problems.
  4. No, I have not been cruel or cunning to others or myself.
  5. Again, the answer is no–mainly because 1) we’re still in the midst of a global pandemic, 2) therefore it really isn’t in good form trying to go out and meet new people, and 3) I’m still trying to figure out my life, which may (or may not) include at least one move in the near future. Therefore, I’m not in the mindset/mood to deal with another person’s opinions/thoughts on my future right now.

The moon then is also moving through my first house (or my Image zone), as I usually work with my rising sign (which happens to be Scorpio; as my sun sign is Virgo & my moon sign is Pisces). The first house (or Image zone) focus on you–your personal and/or professional life.

I realized that my moods, focus, and ability to really get numerous things accomplished goes through cycles (some months are more productive than others), and that I also fall into the habit of focusing on one thing over others (a habit that I’m working on breaking). Therefore, I’m actually going to focus on developing a good working plan (covering both personal and professional development) that I can actually stick with it. I’ve gotten a little better at ‘channel-switching’ during the day (going between computer and non-computer work), I will still avoid doing things that I know I should be doing in order to move closer to certain goals; also as nice weather stays–I need to work on the schedule on getting things done on the computer (either morning/night) instead of just sitting outside all afternoon. As I try to work on my inner critic/imposter syndrome, I’ve come up with a small list of goals that will also help me move back towards other goals. Those goals will include:

Finishing up 21-Day Fix Real Time and then starting 21-Day Fix Extreme Real Time

Spend more time reflecting and set at least one ‘long-term’ goal (personal or professional; bonus points if I can set one of each) that is at least 5-10 years down the road.

Then finishing setting up my 12-month plan (based semi off the ‘long-term goals’; plus this would also be finishing up the Aries new moon goal as well)

Continue to mediate daily/nightly

And above all remember as I continue through 2021–Aim for progress and not for perfection.

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February’s Virgo Full Moon: ‘brain dumps’ plus mental & spiritual health goals

So the moon will be entering its full stage tonight as it enters the Virgo constellation. Unlike last year–there isn’t a triple whammy this year (last year was a full moon, setting the clocks ahead an hour, and Friday the 13th all within the same week). Luckily we still have two weeks before we have to set the clocks ahead (that will be followed by a new moon this year), plus we only have one Friday the 13th and that is in November.

If you’re one who tries to understand how your mood changes or is affected by the moon–the Virgo full moon usually has people feeling finicky and anxious. Personally–I don’t need any extra anxiety in my life; I manage to manifest enough of it on my own. Though no matter what I sign I go with (star, rising, or moon)–all three are able to handle the Virgo energy.

My star is Virgo, my rising is Scorpio, and my moon is Pisces; two water signs and an earth sign.

So what are some questions that one can ask during this full moon?

Have I been too picky, pedantic, or critical of myself or anyone else?

Have I been humble to the point of underrating myself?

Have i been of service to others enough this month?

Have I been worrying and complaining too much, and thus attracting negativity?

Have I paid enough attention to the details that I need to this month?

If I were to number the above questions 1-5, my answers would look like:

  1. I don’t think that I’ve been too picky, pedantic, or critical of others (I haven’t been around anyone other than family for a year). Though my overall critical views/thoughts of the world really haven’t changed all that much (though I’m calmer now that adults have been elected and sworn in for the US). In terms of how I see myself? I probably have been a little too pedantic and critical of myself lately. I’ve realized that I’m still allowing my inner critic/imposter syndrome to get the better of me quite frequently. This is something that I have to be watching for on a day-to-day basic and correct it as I catch it (in addition to trying to figure out why I’m slowly self-sabotaging myself).
  2. Another things that I’ve realized over the past year or so is that I have a terrible habit of trying to be a people pleaser (in a way that tries to downplay or mitigate any conflicts), and therefore I haven’t been protecting my time or space. How does that tie in with humbleness–I prefer being in the background and not center stage. Moving forward (either working for myself or going into industry) I need to start tooting my own horn and showing/highlighting my own worth.
  3. I have been doing more of the house chores, and am slowly also taking on more of the cooking chores as well at home. Hopefully with the fact that there are now several vaccines for the coronavirus, I may try to find a part time job later this fall/winter if I haven’t already transitioned into industry or started working for myself full-time.
  4. I’ve realized that at times I do worry/complain about the state of the world. This is something I’ve been trying to work on–worrying only about the things that are actually within my control (namely how I react to everything). I also realized that the negative self-thoughts are a litte harder to catch at times–but it is something that I’m working on daily. Also, it isn’t all negative self-thoughts, but at times actions as well that need to be caught and corrected.
  5. Well this depends on the situation. If we’re talking about the overall details of what I would like to accomplish in a given month–no I haven’t been giving enough attention to details. One of the things that I’m going to start doing is a monthly ‘brain dump’–getting all the ideas of what I would like to accomplish for the month on to paper, and then sorting that list into weekly and daily to-do lists. That way hopefully I will be spending time on all aspects of life and not just zeroing in on one thing and ignoring everything else (like I’ve been known to do).

So, one other thing that people should do is look at what house the moon is moving thorugh as well. For me (using my rising sign), the Virgo full moon is moving through my 11th house or my friend zone. Therefore, the period of the Virgo full moon is also a time to try to focus on the other people in my life, in addition to building and nurturing one’s personal and professional networks as well.

I really haven’t been doing nearly as much networking/connecting as I should be doing since I’m trying to transition into a new position. The reason may seem silly to some people–since I’m not 100% certain of what I want to be doing, I also don’t want to be ‘wasting’ other peoples’ time in informational interviews if I don’t feel like that is the direction I want to go in–but I also know that having informational interviews will help me decide on the direction. Like I said–not logical, but there you have it (one of the many ways my inner critic/imposter syndrome manages to trip me up).

While I have some ideas of what I would like to do moving forward, I am also in that ‘daily struggle’ with my inner critic/imposter syndrome to start dabbling in the stretch zone and start expanding the ‘comfort zone’. Therefore networking is going to be getting done, but at a slower pace than what I was doing this time last year.

So what goals can I set for the Virgo full moon?

Meditating nightly, journaling in the morning, and slowly figuring out how to find balance with the inner critic/imposter syndrome

Try doing a ‘monthly brain dump’–getting all the ideas of what I would like to get accomplished during the month (say for March), and then selecting ideas from the list to put on a weekly and daily to-do lists. Have it such that it is a mix of various things instead of focusing only on one area.

Continue working on the transition plan–figuring out which industry directions are of interest and start trying to network again.

But keeping in mind: that 2021 will be the year of growth, creativity, and curiosity, the combination of which will lead to happiness and prosperity.

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