So most people were doing the decade comparison in pictures
over various social media sites—I’m not going to do that, mainly because I let
my health and fitness slide enough that I’m back to basically the same weight.
But I can try to summarize the past decade and maybe that will allow me to try
actually projecting ahead a few years (so that I can actually push myself out
of the “weeds” or “quicksand” that I feel like I’ve been stuck in for the past
I started out the decade by finally finishing graduate
school. I had promised myself that I would be done with school by the time I
hit my 30th birthday and I was (more or less). I managed to finish
two out of the three requirements (the third was what held up my diploma
another five months). But I walked across the stage and accepted the diploma
holder for my PhD in May, I presented and defended my dissertation in July, and
then dealt with rewrites of my dissertation that finally earned me my diploma
in December of 2010.
I took a post-doctoral position out in the Boston area in
July of 2010. This required me finding an apartment that was close to public
transportation (since that was how I was going to be getting to work every
day). I managed that, but then hired the worst possible company to move my
stuff out there (luckily they’re now out of business)—to the point that I slept
on an air mattress for a month before my furniture and things showed up. I also
hired pet movers to move my dog (Chewi) and cat (Pancakes) out there, and I
will use them again when I move for my next position (as I also hired them to
move Chewi and Pancakes back home when the job folded under me and I had to
move back home in 2012).
So from August 2010 to December 2012 (with a short visit
back for Christmas in 2011) I was on the east coast. I did manage to visit
Maine, NYC, and Connecticut; with drive-troughs of New Hampshire and Rhode
Island (to get to Maine [New Hampshire—though I think it was also a brief stop]
and then Connecticut & NYC [Rhode Island]). I didn’t do as much traveling
in the area as I would have liked, due to 1) not having that much
money—postdocs aren’t paid great, even in large cities [they don’t take cost of
living into consideration], and 2) I didn’t feel comfortable always hiring a
pet sitter (did that once for the trip back home for Christmas 2011).
But I did visit Salem and Rockport, in addition to wandering
around Boston. The trips out of state to visit friends and family allowed me to
see a little bit of other states—though if I move back there I would like to
spend more than 24 hours in NYC playing tourist.
Being out in the Boston area was fun—I made numerous friends
and enjoyed exploring the area. It wasn’t the greatest decision career wise
though—I only learned a few new techniques, and the position ended on a sour
note between my advisor and me. One thing I learned is that I should always try
to listen to that voice that warns that there could be issues with the job—I
ignored it, and found out that yeah, there were issues with the job.
Christmas 2012 saw me moving back home from Boston. While I
could have tried to find something in the Boston area, truthfully at this point
I was pretty well financially broke, and emotionally burnt out. I decided that
it might be best to regroup, where I knew that I could save money, and maybe
figure out what I was doing with my life. But of course, I wasn’t sure what I
was going to be doing—I just knew that I really needed to find some job so
that I could start paying off all the credit card debt that I built up living
in Boston (see above note about how postdocs are paid).
2011 also saw my parents bringing another dog into the
family—a Great Pyrenees/Bearded Collie mix that we named Boozer (she was
fascinated by the sounds of cans opening when she first came into the house).
She was also served as a transition dog for my dad, as we weren’t sure how much
longer the St. Bernard had (though she lasted another three and a half years).
I managed to get another postdoctoral position within my
alma mater department working with yeast. This meant that I was learning a new
biological system (previously I’d work with plants, bacteria, insects, and cell
cultures), and new techniques. Alas, the money for that position only lasted a
little over a year (and the fellowship I tried for I didn’t get [in part due to
being back at my alma mater and not asking my first postdoc advisor for a
letter of recommendation]),
Luckily I managed to find a one-month teaching position that
paid well. It kept me busy during part of summer, and reminded me that I did
enjoy working with students. I spent the next few months putting out job applications—I
luckily managed to get another position within the department this time working
directly with undergraduate students. I had to write my own job description
after being hired as no one knew exactly what the position was suppose to
entail. I coined the job title “senior research specialist/undergraduate
research techniques instructor” as I was doing both—research and trying to
teach students the basic techniques they would need to know for doing research
in a lab.
This was a job that I really enjoyed for the most
part—working with students, working on different projects and just generally
not being bored (again for the most part). The only drawbacks were working with
certain people (and you can have personality conflicts no matter where you go).
So this position lasted from basically mid-September 2014 through July of 2017;
it was terminated due to funding issues and I became unemployed for the third
time. This unemployment period lasted longer than the other two (probably could
be considered a sum of the other two), but again I managed to get another staff
position within the department just after Thanksgiving in 2017.
2015 was also a slightly off year as it was the year that we
had to say goodbye to our St. Bernard Speedbump. She was a loving goof ball
that got along with all dogs, and was a cuddle bug.
Now this position taught me a few more things, and it was a
paycheck. It was a yearly position that would be renewed if there was funding
available for it—so always fun working and wondering if there would be another
contract to sign or if you were going to be told sorry only ‘x’ months left. So
after signing another contract in November of 2018 I decided that no matter
what, this would be basically the last year at my alma mater.
2018 was also another off year as we lost three more dogs—we
lost Spelunkers in February due to cancer, and then we lost two other dogs in
October (within a span of four days) due to both old age and other health
issues (heart problems and cancer). So to say that I was more than happy to see
the tail end of 2018 was an understatement.
2019 was an okay year—we adopted two more puppies (my mom got her puppy in May—a boxer mix that we named Rolex (so she could say that she had her watchdog), and then I adopted a puppy about a week before Christmas (a male blue heeler/border collie/aussie mix that I named Chaos—because bring another dog into the house right before the holidays was to introduce Chaos). So yes, two new puppies with names that make a play on words.
This was also the year that I decided that I would quit my
job and take a “reboot break”. Since I realized that I could truthfully say
that I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, I needed to take a break,
regroup, and then focus on my career—I don’t want to say that going through
college and earning a PhD was for no reason—I’m going to dedicate time to
figure out what the best path for me is in terms of a career change that still
will allow me to make use of the skills that I picked up over the past twenty
plus years (yes, I figured out that my academic career reached the legal
drinking age awhile ago—and since I wasn’t totally happy within that arena it
is time to figure out what arena I want to be in).
Here is to 2020—the start of a new year, and a new decade.
It is a blank slate and I am capable of writing whatever narrative I want for
my life. I control the direction that my life goes—all I need to do is fix the
oars, patch the leaks, and look up to the stars. I open myself up to what the
universe will send my way.