Category: Astrology

Gemini Full Moon: Time to work on my time management & planning skills. More self-reflection wouldn’t hurt.

We will be entering the full moon for November probably tonight (and I’m going to be a day late in posting). This means that there are only 31 days left in 2020—one more month. Then we cautiously peek around the corner to see what 2021 is going to bring.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to give myself grace when it comes to trying to get a lot of stuff accomplished. The reasons for this are: 1) I currently not working under any type of schedule; 2) depending on how I try to structure the schedule I may (or may not) give myself an anxiety attack; and 3) I still am trying to determine what direction(s) I want to be pursuing. In regards to the last reason—I want to be semi-confident that I’m going in the direction I want before sitting down to do a lot of work. This means I need to figure out the minimum workload to do in order to give myself an idea on the direction.

So, with that being said—I’m hoping to get back into some type of posting schedule in 2021. It will include photography (probably restarting the photography challenge for like the 5th time), and then it may also include more science, spirituality, humanities, social science and so forth. I need to determine the best mix of things to both keep me engaged in creating content and learning.

Therefore getting back to the topic at hand: November’s Full Moon. After this full moon, there will only be one more new and full moon for 2020.  So what are some questions that one can contemplate during this time? Looking at “Moonology: working with the magic of lunar cycles” by Yasmin Boland, there are five questions that one can ask during this full moon:

            Have I been gossipy, superficial, or flighty this month?

            Have I been glossing over other people’s feelings?

            Have I been too quick to change my mind, or too restless?

            Have I been too much of a silver-tongued hustler?

            Have I done enough reading to keep expanding my mind?

If I were to number the above questions 1-5, my answers would be as follow:

  1. No I haven’t been gossipy, superficial, or flighty this month. With the pandemic still going strong, the only people I see on a daily basis are my parents; I talk with one friend usually weekly, and keep in touch with everyone else via social media. The only thing really in the news has been the pandemic and the fact that Joe Biden and Kamala Harris won the election earlier this month.
  2. No I don’t think I’ve been glossing over other people’s feelings. Again, not around that many people and I’m pretty sure my parents would let me know if I was being too irritating.
  3. This one is a little more difficult to answer—I don’t think I’ve been too quick to change my mind on things; but I also haven’t been quick on deciding on things either. So, I would have to say I’ve been a little restless in terms of career transition and other things.
  4. Nope, I haven’t been a silver-tongued hustler. I’m actually going to be stepping back from doing Beachbody coaching this coming month, as I’ve realized that currently that type of coaching isn’t what I want to be doing—and I also need to try to get my life in some order before trying to help others.
  5. This has both a yes and a no answer. Yes, in terms that I have quite a few books on my digital to-be-read pile and I’m slowly making my way through the list. It is also a no, in that there are days (and if I’m honest weeks) where I decide to either reread different romance series or I’m just doing color by number pictures instead of reading a personal/professional development book.

So I’m also going to see what house the moon will be transition through during this time. Using my rising sign (which is Scorpio), the Gemini constellation is moving through my eighth house—the focus of this house on “death and rebirth, reinvention and transformation”.

This makes sense as I’m still working through and figuring out my reinvention and transformation plan. This plan will focus on personal/professional development and encompass both career and personal health. The pandemic this year was the ‘death’ to quite a few plans (that luckily hadn’t been finalized yet, so I didn’t lose any money), and hopefully 2021 may be the ‘rebirth’ of some of those plans.

So this is the time to try to find balance between slowing down, rushing to learn things, being real with people, money, and determining one’s self worth.

Therefore my small goal list for the last month of 2020 (since the full moon showed up on Nov 30th) will include:          

            Read (or finish) at least two non-fiction books, and take (or highlight sections) notes in order to also post a book review on the blog (and possibly amazon as well).

            Continue to work on improving my evening/afternoon meditations.

            Get creative in figuring out an schedule/calendar for things. I’ve had ideas of doing everything from a ‘syllabus’ (treating different areas like they were ‘school subjects’) to making a to-be accomplished list. Needless to say neither has really stuck (though to be fair on the to-be accomplished list, the first draft was more of a brain dump). I may try to make a hybrid of the three—a brain dump, cleaned up into a to-be accomplished list, which can be formatted into one or more ‘syllabus’.

While reminding myself: “Progress over perfection”, “You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one”; and “Not caring what other people think is the best choice you will ever make”.

Also just wanting to try to finish 2020 on a somewhat positive note.

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Reviewing Fitness/Health Goals set during the Taurus Full Moon

So the moon will be transitioning into its next full moon phase in a day or two at the end of November. That means that there is literally one month left in 2020—30 odd days left. Then there will be 20 days until the new president and vice-president are sworn into office here in the United States.

While I will be happy to see 2020 come to an end—because lets face it, it has been a very difficult year for everyone; I’m leery about how 2021 is going to go/start. I mean, I hope that 2020 wasn’t a prequel to show how the decade was going to go—because if it is, I want a time machine NOW!

Anyway, before I can look ahead to the next full moon, it is time to look back at the goals that I set for the Taurus full moon and see how I did with each of them.

The goals for the Taurus full moon included:

            Finish up LIIFT4/YBB and then start 10 Rounds/YBB

            Start trying to dial in my nutrition a little (try to eat a few more fruits/veggies and a little less candy)

            Continue working on my life handbook

            Start being a little more active online (commenting, liking, posting) in various groups on Facebook and LinkedIn

            Meditating nightly (yes, this is focusing on me a little—but if I keep myself in the right mindset, I’m more polite and easier to be around other people).

So how did I do with each of them?

In terms of the working out, I did finish the LIIFT4/YBB mix—though towards the end it was mainly LIIFT4. I have started 10 Rounds, and I doubt that I’m going to add in YBB constantly. One thing I’ve learned over the past few months is that it is perfectly fine to take the rest day (or days), and know that I’m not going to just quit working out (like I had earlier in the year).

In terms of dialing in my nutrition—this has been a little more difficult for me. One thing I’ve realized is that with the various eating plans I’ve tried to follow over the years—they’ve burnt me out on fruits and veggies. Now I love fruits—but I don’t like having to eat them constantly if I don’t want to (hence the reason why I’m currently not following any type of eating plans). In terms of veggies—I’m very picky on both the veggies I eat, how they’re cooked, and whether or not they should be stored and then reheated. So this is something I’m still working on.

In terms of making my life handbook—this is also a work in progress. As someone who is still trying to figure out what the hell they want to do with their life, trying to make the ‘blueprint’ at the same time is a little daunting. Ongoing task.

While I’ve been a little more active online, it was more on the main LinkedIn and Facebook pages; though I did post a few other things on a group page on Facebook. So this is again something of an ongoing task.

Meditating has usually ended up with me doing it right before going to sleep (so I’ve been in more of a prone position than a sitting position). Also I’ve realized that unlike others I don’t have a problem of ‘quieting’ the mind—my thoughts are obviously running around in the background whispering, because when I sit (or lay in a prone position)—thoughts are sparse. Something though to continue working on—possibly trying to do it multiple times during the day, just to lower the blood pressure.

So some things went better than others—finishing up LIIFT4 and starting 10 Rounds (though currently it isn’t one of my favorites, but that is because I feel like I have two left feet, and I’m having to figure out the modification moves myself since there is no modifier).

Nutrition will always be a work in progress, and some things will go better than others—I can probably add in fruits more easily than I can add in veggies to my daily/weekly routine. One thing I’m going to try to do is work towards having at least 3 servings of fruits throughout the week (yes, I know that should be a daily goal—but baby steps). A okay week will be 1 serving, a good week will be 3 servings, a better week will be 1 serving fruit/daily, and the best week will be 2-3 servings of fruit/daily.

While reminding myself: ‘Progress over Perfection’; ‘You can’t start the next chapter of your life, if you keep re-reading the last one’ and ‘Not caring what others people think is the best choice you will ever make’

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Time to focus on self care, meditation/mindfulness, & those e-courses: Scorpio New Moon Goals

So the moon is going to be transitioning through it’s new phase last night–I’m a day late in posting this, and it is moving through the Scorpio constellation. We’re halfway through November, and that means there are only about 47 days left in 2020. While I’m almost joyful that the year is ending (and the fact that the 2020 election went the way I wanted)—I’m also slightly wary to see what 2021 is going to be bringing. I mean in terms of the pandemic, the world is currently over 54 million total cases, the US is over 11 million cases and there are over 1.3 million dead from this damn virus. There should hopefully be a vaccine available sometime next year (but when it will be available to the general population—that is a good question).

So as the moon moves through Scorpio, there are several things that one can do during this time (according to “Moonology: working with the magic of lunar cycles” by Yasmin Boland), and they are:

            Get sexy.

            Invest wisely.

            Make inner peace.

            B-r-e-a-t-h-e

            Drop grudges

This moon is also moving through my first house or my image zone (how one presents themselves to the world). While Aries is the start of the zodiac calendar—when the moon (either full or new) passes through your first house, it can also seem as the start of a “new year” (we can have a “new start” twice a year if necessary).

So what are some of the things that one can do during this time?

            Surprise friends with the ‘new you’

            Throw out all your old make-up and start again

            Get married or meet someone new

            Good time to move

            Splurge on something in a vibrant color

            Have a facial

            Get your sight checked

For me, this particular new moon period is guiding me to focus on myself, and remind myself that I’m worth whatever work I put into my future—in other words no one else is going to do the work for me. This is a future that is going to take awhile to create (in part to the pandemic), but also because I realize that there are quite a few issues that I still need to work on, but never the less: a new future is going to be made—and I’m the only one that can make it what I want, if I do nothing—others decide my future.

Looking at the above two lists there are few things that are crossed off (getting sexy, throwing out make-up, getting married or meeting someone new, and currently moving). These are only crossed off because 1) I currently don’t wear makeup; 2) I’m not in a relationship or looking to be in a relationship; and 3) in order to move I have to have an idea of where to move to—and that is up in the air; in addition to a pandemic (so no moving yet).

A few other things are being crossed off this year as well: Getting my sight checked (pandemic is still around, and I don’t want to be going places if I can avoid it); surprise friends with the ‘new me’—the new me is still a work in progress, and gatherings are currently again a no-no.

But if I were to make a short list of goals for the Scorpio New Moon they’d include:

            Meditating and/or B-R-E-A-T-H-E; I had it as a goal last month as well—I’ve realized that the best way to possibly do it is to hook up the iPod to the mini-speaker and try to play some nature music (or make use of the white noise maker). But also realize that if I can only manage a few minutes at a time that is still a win. Possibly also work through a couple of courses on mindfulness as well.

            Start working through one or two of the finance courses that I’ve purchased so that I can possibly start thinking of investing some money at some point in 2021.

            Start the 10 rounds workout program (this this a six week program and should take me to Christmas). Also I need to give the program an honest try–therefore I am committing to the six weeks and doing one round (any additional rounds will depend on what I think of the program at the end).

And as I head into the last few weeks of November and then December, I need to remind myself to keep the following phrases/quotes front and center as well:

“Progress over Perfection”, “You can’t start the next chapter of your life, if you keep reading the last one”, and “Not caring what other people think is the best choice you will ever make”.

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Mini-rant, and various updates (including October’s Libra New Moon)

So I was debating on whether or not I was going to combine posts or do two separate posts–and I decided to combine.

The first portion of the post is going to be a mini-rant (#sorrynotsorry). The US elections were not quite two weeks ago and they went the way I was hoping–Joe Biden & Kamala Harris were elected the 46th President & Vice-President of the US. Historic first, with the election of Kamala Harris (she’s the first woman & woman of color elected). This isn’t what I’m going to be ranting about–what has me totally flabbergasted is that there were over 71 million people who still voted for the orange blob that is currently residing in the White House.

I don’t understand that–how could anyone vote for him?? The COVID cases in the US are over 11 million (and were over 9 or 10 million on election day), there are over 250K dead, there are major issues with our economy, housing, healthcare, environment, human rights, and it should also be mentioned that he is a serial sexual predator as well. Those issues right there would have me voting for the opposite party if I was a member of that political party and this was their candidate. I can’t understand how anyone (especially white women) could vote for him–unless they’re perfectly fine with all those problems.

I know that everyone is saying that there needs to be conversations between the two sides–I agree to a point. I’m willing to discuss/debate actual issues such as figuring out how to raise money to fix roads, bridges, build schools, improve infrastructure and things like that. I’m not willing to discuss/debate moral issues such as black lives do matter, I don’t care about what is going on in peoples’ bedrooms as long as everyone involved is consenting adults, there is no planet B, families are meant to stay together (not be separated at the boarder)–because unless you can trace both sides of your family back in the US and/or Americas prior to 1492, you are the descendant of either slaves or illegal immigrants (because that is how the US was founded).

So, yes going forward there may or may not be political posts on the blog (I do try to keep them to an absolute minimum)–but I’m also trying to be true to myself and not minimize one part to make the world at large happy. Also should make it known–any and all comments are flagged as spam until I review them. Therefore anything hateful or spiteful will never show up on this site–they’re deleted without hesitation. #goodvibesonly #notimeforhaters

So now to the next topic: Reviewing the Libra New Moon goals before moving on to making the goals for the Scorpio New Moon.

So we’re going to be coming up on November’s new moon this weekend. This means that besides needing to look back at the goals that were set for the October new moon—there are also only 47 days left in 2020. While the election went the way I wanted—we still have 67 days until the new president and vice-president are sworn in, which means there are still 67 days for the current administration to cause problems (and they have been).

But my irritation with that (and the current pandemic) are ideas for another blog post. Here I’m going to look back at the few broad goals that I set for the Libra new moon and see how I did with each of them.

So what were my goals for the Libra new moon?

            Improve/work on my nightly meditations;

            Start trying to tune in to my intuition/gut instinct; and

            Continue working on regaining my identity.

So how did I do with each of them?

            In terms of trying to improve my nightly meditations—I would say that I managed it only about two or three nights. For one thing—I usually forgot to grab my phone and have it near me when I was doing my card reading (therefore I didn’t turn on the nature music when I tried to meditate). One thing I can try to do is set up the iPod and mini speaker. I’m pretty sure I have nature (or at least some classical music) on the iPod—I can have it playing while I’m doing the card reading and then meditating.

            In terms of trying to listen to my intuition/gut instinct more—this is also slow going. I’m tuned in to the fact that I really don’t feel like going into a bench position (though they still do sound interesting)—and the main (current) reason is because of needing to relocate. Until the pandemic is under control in the US, when I start looking for a position it will be something that is remote/online to begin with. Everything is basically boiling down to trust—and I truthfully don’t trust majority of others to be listening to the experts and doing what they’re told.

            In terms of ‘regaining’ my identity—I’m pretty sure that this will always be a work in progress. I’m working on changing my mindset with food—I know that yes, there are certain foods that are better than others; but in all reality there is no thing as ‘good food’ versus ‘bad food’ in terms of overall nutrition—some are just loaded a little differently in terms of contents.

            In terms of developing an identity away from higher education—this is again a work in progress. I have some ideas of what I may like to do (most currently revolve around remote/online/freelancing/self-employment)—I just need to try to actually write out the goals (but have them framed in a more flexible tone of voice). My main goal is to develop a career path/identity that allows me to focus and highlight my strengths while improving some of my weaknesses.

Things may not have gone a hundred percent in terms of meeting the goals—tuning into my body and gut instinct/intuition is something that is going to take time to both cultivate and honor since I’ve spent so many years ignoring them. But there were steps forward in all three areas and that shows that I’ve managed to keep at least one phrase front and center the past month:

“Progress over Perfection”

Small steps lead to large accomplishments over time.

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The Taurus Full Moon falls on Halloween–a Blue moon & goals

So the moon will be heading into it’s latest full moon phase today—Halloween. This should be a very interesting few days—it’s a full moon, Halloween, plus (at least in the US), we have to set our clocks back an hour before heading to bed—then the US presidential elections are a few days later.

This weekend besides the full moon and Halloween—I will also be spending time outside dealing with all the broken branches from the ice storm that we had this week (our poor maple tree is now about half the height it was last week). We will have a nice amount of wood to stack and use next year (since it does take about six months or so for the ‘green’ wood to age).

In terms of some self-reflection during this time, there are some questions one can ask themselves (taken from “Moonology: working with the magic of the lunar cycles” by Yasmin Boland), and they are:

            Have I been lazy or overly self indulgent this month?

            Have I been too obsessed with money or status symbols?

            Have I been stubborn, jealous, or possessive?

            Have I been doing too much comfort eating?

            Have I done enough exercise?

If I were to number the above questions 1-5, my answers would be:

  1. I would say this depends on what one considers overly self-indulgent? I haven’t been lazy, but I will admit to probably buying a few too many e-books. I’m going to try to make it through November with minimal purchases.
  2. I’ve never really been one for status symbols. I may be currently thinking a little more about money—but that is just because I’m on the reboot break during a pandemic and I want to make sure that I don’t totally run through my savings.
  3. Any and everyone would tell you that I’m stubborn. I freely admit to being stubborn—I think it is the one thing that got me through grad school. I personally can’t think of anything (or anyone) that I’m currently jealous of (unless you count countries that are actually handling the SARS-CoV2 pandemic decently). There is currently nothing that I’m possessive over either.
  4. Yes, I probably have been doing a little too much comfort eating—it’s the Halloween season, which means candy, candy, and more candy. Also, chocolate seems to be one thing that is really helping me manage this damn pandemic.
  5. I currently only have about 2 weeks left on the LIIFT4 program (I’m doing it for a second time), and I already have the next year workout schedule planned. I’m using fitness as more of a marker than nutrition currently for judging how I’m doing with certain things.

Then I should also look to see what house it is passing through as well—and for me, Taurus passes through my seventh house—or my “love zone”. This is the time that we spend a little energy on other people, instead of making everything about ourselves.

For me, currently there are no romantic relationships (I’m still trying to get my life in some semblance of order), I’m not working, therefore that means focusing on other relationships—(family, and friends).

In terms of trying to spend time with friends—we’re still in the middle of a pandemic and therefore it isn’t safe to really get together with anyone outside of family. In terms of family—it isn’t safe to try to visit anyone who is living out of state—that means I’m usually just around my parents (and every-so-often my younger brother when he comes into town).

This is a weird year (we’ve been in the grasp of the pandemic since March and truthfully there really isn’t an end in site), and I acknowledge that I’m doing the best that I can—even if it looks like I’m moving backwards in some areas.

So if I were to pick a couple of things to work on during the Taurus full moon period they would be:

            Finish up LIIFT4/YBB and then start 10 Rounds/YBB

            Start trying to dial in my nutrition a little (try to eat a few more fruits/veggies and a little less candy)

            Continue working on my life handbook

            Start being a little more active online (commenting, liking, posting) in various groups on Facebook and LinkedIn

            Meditating nightly–and hopefully for more than just a minute or two.

While reminding myself: ‘Progress over Perfection’; ‘You can’t start the next chapter of your life, if you keep re-reading the last one’ and ‘Not caring what others people think is the best choice you will ever make’

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Looking back at the goals for the Aries full moon

So the moon will be entering its second full moon stage on Saturday—which is also Halloween. So, hopefully the temperatures will be nice, and after doing quite a bit of yard work throughout the day—I will sit outside in the backyard with the dogs for a while basking under the light of the moon. But before one can start looking towards the next full moon, one should reflect on the goals that they had set for the previous one.

Therefore, I need to look at the goals that I set for the Aries full moon and see how I did with each of them.

The goals that I had set for the Aries full moon included:

            Review, edit, and reassemble my 150+ goals to accomplish in 2002 days. I know that there are some things that I can probably remove from the list—I won’t be changing the time period, I will just be changing out goals—seeing what has been accomplished, what needs to go, and possibly what can be added.

            Figure out what other ‘notes’ to post around the computer to help in time management. I’ve currently been telling myself when I can check my email and get on social media—it is slowly helping in managing my time.

            Continue with personal/professional development. This will include working through e-courses, reading, and journaling (especially taking prompts from different books and/or e-courses).

            Draft a ‘master plan’ that includes the blog, the transition (remote, freelance, contract), personal/professional development, hobbies, and life in general.

So how did I do with each of them?

In terms of the 150+ goal list—I did remove one goal (totally finishing the dream job hack program), I also removed the ‘number of days’ that I was going to be pushing play in terms of working out.

I removed the number of days and instead just stated that I was planning on trying to complete each of the following programs at least once.

I also then updated the rest in terms of how I was doing with each area—some I haven’t done much in, others I’ve done a bit more in. I’ve also decided that I would probably look at the list every 100 days or so and decide if the goals were still working or if I need to remove/add any goals.

In terms of the ‘notes’—the first two only lasted about a week and a half. I’m thinking of actually trying to find the programs to block access to various sites (or at least remove the bookmarks for certain sites). I’m getting a little better at time management, but not to the standard I really need to be at, especially if I’m thinking of starting up a freelance/consulting/remote/contract work.

I managed to get a couple of books read during the month, and slowly started working through another e-course (I’m about halfway through the medical writers organization). This is something that will always be on the list of things to accomplish—personal and professional development should be a never ending path that we travel on.

Still working on the ‘master plan’ for my life. Even though I have some ideas, I usually break out in an anxiety attack when I start writing them down as goals (since I haven’t though of how to break them down in to smaller goals). Now I’m just going to refer to things as going on my ‘to-be-accomplished’ list instead of a to-do list. The first has a much more positive spin on things.

So progress is being made—in terms of ideas of the direction(s) I would like to go with my career (just need to work on various courses along with two very important transferable skills—time and project management. I’m reading more (though at times it is more fiction, than non-fiction—but I’m working on trying to balance that out).

I realize that no matter how next week turns out—I’m in the driver seat of my career and life and therefore I need to determine the best direction(s) for me (and the pets) to be going in.

The following quotes are one of the things I keep coming back to as I work through various things: Progress over Perfection; You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one; and not caring what other people think is the best choice you will ever make.

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Time for meditation, listening to one’s intuition, & self-reflection: Libra New Moon Goals

So we are coming up on October’s new moon (either last night, tonight, or maybe tomorrow—again depending on where you are in the world). For me, the new moon is tonight. We’re a little over halfway through October, and that means there are basically 66 days left in 2020; and only a little over 2 weeks until the elections.

So the moon is going to be moving through the Libra constellation over the next day or so (hence, this is the Libra new moon), and that means there are various things we can look at or work on over the next few weeks—such as:

            Look at how you’re relating to other people (difficult to totally assess this year due to the pandemic and self-isolation, but should see if you’re helping more than asking).

            Look into your partnerships (any issues that need addressing?)

            Negotiate—try to bring things into balance if needed.

            Look gorgeous—work on improving your self-image, and self-love.

            Regain your identity—figure out how to resolve any unhealthy co-dependency issues if needed.

The Libra new moon is also moving through my 12th house—or my secret zone. This is the time/house when you really just want to retreat from the world and work things out for a while. In terms of self-care/self-love what are some of the things you could focus on during this time?

            Practice yoga

            Take a break from social media and/or numerous social obligations

            Start a dream journal

            Face one big fear

            Trust your intuition

            Buy a meditation CD & use it every day for a month

            Write poetry from the heart

            Share one of your secrets

So this new moon is actually urging me to find a balance between social obligations and self-care/self-love. In one way it is easy—I’m still self-isolating, and therefore any “meetings” that I would be attending are all virtual. I haven’t actually had a sit-down conversation with someone (outside of family) since March. Looking back at old entries—I’m still working on trying to achieve mental clarity/calmness. One thing I’ve noticed, is that I have a habit of having numerous ‘stories/conversations’ running through my head—and none of them really mean anything, but at times they all spike my anxiety into the zone of not wanting to do anything (giving myself an anxiety attack for no reason).

So what are my goals going to be for the Libra new moon?

            Improve/work on my nightly meditations; I have nature CDs on my iPhone, that I use to listen to when I was meditating. Lately, I’ve just been doing an oracle card reading, interpreting the cards, reading, and then trying to meditate a little before going to sleep. I’m going to try to put the ‘meditation’ between reading and going to bed. Sometimes it’s works better sitting/laying on the floor then reclining on the bed.

            Start trying to tune in more to my intuition/gut instinct. While I’ve spent quite a bit of time over the past ten months doing self-reflection, and trying to listen to my inner voice—it is still something that I need to work on daily. I’ve listened to it in terms of turning down potential job leads—most are in research and since I’m not absolutely certain that is the way I want to go, I’m turning things down (as I don’t want to go in a direction, simply because it is the only thing that I know).

            Continue working on regaining my identity. Currently I think the only ‘unhealthy co-dependency issue’ I have is with sweets and I’m working on changing my mindset in terms of food. We’ve all been taught to treat food as ‘good’ versus ‘bad’—when it’s just food, energy for our body. Yes, some may be a little more nutritious than others, but there is no checkpoint in our body that stops calories and questions them on the food source they came from. I’m working on developing an identity that doesn’t revolve around higher education research—an identity that encompasses all of me (strengths, weaknesses, quirks, and faults) and allows me to go through each day feeling like I’m making a difference in the world.

And as I continue moving forward (no matter how small the steps seem) I’m going to be keeping the following phrases/quotes front and center:

“Progress over Perfection”, “You can’t start the next chapter of your life, if you keep re-reading the last one”, and “Not caring what other people think is the best choice you will ever make”.

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Some routines are working & some need tuning: Review of the Virgo new moon goals

We should be heading into October’s new moon tomorrow night (though depending on where you are in the world, the timing may be tonight instead). I’m trying to get better at posting on the blog—I’m slightly behind in the photography challenge, not that I don’t have pictures to post, but the stumbling block is actually trying to get something written about the picture (and hopefully with more than 100 words). Truthfully, before trying to blog I never really paid that much attention to how many words were in a particular writing assignment.

So before looking to the next new moon, I should look back at the goals that I set for the Virgo new moon, see how I did with each one of them, and where I can still work on improvements.

So what were my goals for the Virgo new moon?

  1. Take inventory of various aspects of life and try to develop a working schedule that will allow me be both productive, but at the same time enjoying time outside as well.
  2. Continue with daily workouts (currently it is a combo of Yoga Booty Ballet with LIIFT4).
  3. In combination with #1—organize the schedule, possibly alternating days that certain things are done on (for example networking on Mondays & Wednesdays, but following up with people on Tuesdays & Fridays).
  4. Continue with nightly oracle card readings and also try to spend at least two to three minutes meditating (either before or after the reading).

So how did I do with each goal?

In terms of taking an inventory of my life and developing/organizing a schedule—still working on it. I’ve realized that one of my major problems (and possibly the number one trigger of my anxiety) is that I try to put way to much stuff on the plate for any particular week or day.

I think that I have to work on all aspects of life constantly—for example I’m doing a daily workout (getting back into a fitness routine), trying to work through various e-courses, read, network, brainstorm ideas, spend time on crafts, and keep my sanity.

I think that the best thing will be developing the schedule and alternating days of doing things—make the small steps each day/week towards the goals but alternate what goal I’m working towards any particular day. I’m thinking of limiting it to no more than 2 to 3 goals a day, and no more than 4 to 6 goals a week. This way I’m focusing on 2 to 3 areas of life (fitness/nutrition and then personal and professional development).

In terms of continuing with the daily workout—I’m into week 4/5 of my combo calendar. It would be starting week 5 of Yoga Booty Ballet, but basically ending week 4 of LIIFT4. I should be done with this combo mid-November and then going on to 10 Rounds (which is another resistance/cardio combo program).

I’ve already touch a little on how I’m really going to try to break up tasks and try to focus on certain things on certain days (trying to hopefully keep the anxiety and nerves under a little more control).

In terms of nightly oracle card readings and meditations—I’ve only missed a couple of nights (usually running behind on everything else and I just want to turn off the lights and unwind for awhile before heading to bed). I’m really getting into one of the new sets of oracle cards I got recently and should hopefully be putting up a review of it on the blog in the coming weeks.

It’s nice to see that even when I don’t have a clear question for the universe, I’m still being shown that I am on the right path.

While there are many people who didn’t agree with my decision to quit my job in December to do some much needed soul-searching and reflection—I needed to do it for me, and no one else.

I’m coming closer to figuring out my path—I just have to remember that everyone feels like a fraud from time to time, everyone makes mistakes, and that no matter how small the steps are if I keep moving forward long enough, once I turn around to judge my journey I’ll be impressed with how far I’ve come.

But I am also going to be keeping the following quotes/phrases front and center as well:

 “Progress over Perfection”, “You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one”, and “Not caring what other people think is the best choice you will ever make”.

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Aries Full Moon Goals: Time to reflect/revise, & plan new goals.

So the moon will be entering its full moon stage either tonight or tomorrow night (depending on where you are in the world). This will mark the first of two full moons for the month of October (the second one will actually occur on Halloween this year). So in addition to being the first of two full moons for the month—it also marks the beginning of the last quarter of 2020 as well. Fingers crossed, that the last quarter goes more smoothly than the first three quarters have gone.

So the moon will be moving through the Aries constellation—which means that astrologically we’re ‘starting a new year’ since Aries is the start of the Zodiac calendar. It is the time to reassess, redesign, toss, and make new goals if one is inclined.

So what are some of the questions we can reflect on during this time?

            Have I been hotheaded, selfish, or argumentative this month?

            Have I been going too fast or been impulsive this month?

            Have I been brash, blunt, or too competitive?

            Have I ignored other people’s finer sensibilities?

            Have I had enough fun?

So before answering the questions, I do need to point out that it is the beginning of the month, so I actually going to answer these questions based on 1) how I want to behave during the coming month, but also 2) how I behaved during the past couple of weeks. So as usually I’m going to number the questions 1 to 5 as I answer them.

  1. While I haven’t been selfish (at least I don’t think I’ve been acting selfishly) over the past month, nor do I plan on acting selfishly during the coming weeks—unless you consider setting aside time for self-care (for me that is taking bubble baths, and having at least forty-five minutes of winding down at night before bed)—then I will selfishly guard those times. I’m trying to control my temper—I will admit to getting into an argument with people last month. We’re still in the middle of a pandemic, and people are getting tired of the fact that nothing is ‘normal’. They want their kids to be in school full time face-to-face. While I can agree that face-to-face teaching is the norm, and what in theory is ‘best’—if you can’t guarantee small class room sizes, social distancing desks, and that your kids are going to wear the masks all day—it isn’t worth the risk. This isn’t a novel flu or cold that is going around—it is something five (or more) times deadly, and even if it doesn’t kill you it will leave you with health problems for the rest of your life. So yes, this is the one thing that I will argue with people about.
  2. In terms of being impulsive—I’m an impulsive book buyer (and that is something that I’m trying to curb. I know that I have hundreds of books on my e-reader that I haven’t read and I should make a dent in that ‘pile’ before buying more). In terms of going too fast—nope, people will probably accuse me of going way too damn slow—but guess what the tortoise won that race. Everyone goes through life at his or her own pace, and I’m finally at peace that my pace isn’t everyone else’s pace.
  3. Well, this depends on the topic—yes, I’ve been blunt in terms of the novel coronavirus. There are things that everyone should be doing (but most people aren’t doing them), that I have kept harping on (wearing masks, social distancing, and staying home whenever possible). But I don’t think that I’ve been brash or too competitive—again I’m slowing down to my pace, I’ve decided that trying to keep pace with everyone else was too damn tiring and if I’m going to make changes it has to be at a pace I’m comfortable with—and not worry if others feel the same.
  4. I don’t think I’ve been ignoring people’s finer sensibilities—it would actually be nice to see if their finer sensibilities would come out during this time. I’m actually trying to ignore their more obnoxious sensibilities, so that I don’t have to downsize my friend list too much over the coming months.
  5. What is this fun, you speak of? We’re going into month seven of the pandemic; the US has over 7.4 million cases, over 200K deaths, and idiots currently in charge. I am trying to figure out ways to add ‘enjoyment’ to my day, but at the same time realize that the ‘old normal’ is gone, and a ‘new normal’ is still at least fourteen to sixteen months off.

I’ve realized that I’m still happy being a wallflower—someone who is happier observing than participating, but that doesn’t help with networking and job searching. True networking is more virtual these days (thanks pandemic), and so are most job interviews—but I still have to develop the enthusiasm for talking with people (and not worry constantly that they’re judging me)—so here is still a small goal to be working on.

Aries is also moving through my sixth house (or my daily work and health zone). This house is where we can sit and reflect on who we are (both in terms of professional/work and personal/health) and decide to work on those aspects that we don’t like.

I had decided a couple of months ago that I was going to push play daily (and I’ve only missed one day so far), and complete four Beachbody programs before the end of the year. I completed morning meltdown-100 mid-September, and am currently going through a combo calendar of yoga booty ballet and LIIFT4. This combo calendar will take me to mid-November, when I will then tackle a new program (which will take me to Christmas). Then I will finish out the year/start the New Year with a different short program.

I’m not really close to where I was hoping to be in terms of my reboot break and transitioning into industry—in part due to the pandemic, but also in part to still not being absolutely sure which direction to go (I do have several ideas that are swirling that I need to get down on paper over the next few days). I have also realized aspects of the past jobs that I’ve liked and that I’ve absolutely detested—those too are going to be written down. The plan is to have an idea of direction(s) that I can go in that play to my strengths, helps me work on some ‘weaknesses’, but avoids most (if not all) the things I learned to detest over the years.

So what are my goals for the Aries full moon?

            Review, edit, and reassemble my 150+ goals to accomplish in 2002 days. I know that there are some things that I can probably remove from the list—I won’t be changing the time period, I will just be changing out goals—seeing what has been accomplished, what needs to go, and possibly what can be added.

            Figure out what other ‘notes’ to post around the computer to help in time management. I’ve currently been telling myself when I can check my email and get on social media—it is slowly helping in managing my time.

            Continue with personal/professional development. This will include working through e-courses, reading, and journaling (especially taking prompts from different books and/or e-courses).

            Draft a ‘master plan’ that includes the blog, the transition (remote, freelance, contract), personal/professional development, hobbies, and life in general.

While sticking to the following reminders: Progress over Perfection; You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one; and not caring what other people think is the best choice you will ever make.

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Update on goals set during the Pisces Full Moon

So the moon will be entering its first of two full moon stage either Thursday (marking the full moon at the very beginning of the month) or Friday night. This full moon is the closest one to the fall equinox (which was last Tuesday). The full moon later in the month will be the “blue” full moon. This also means that we’re entering the last quarter of 2020………

So before looking towards the next full moon, I should look back at the goals that I set for the Pisces full moon and see how I did with each of them.

The goals for the Pisces full moon included:

            More creativity time (namely trying to teach myself cross-stitching)

            More time on self-reflection (meditation and journaling)

            More time on personal/professional development

So how did I do with each goal?

            In terms of creativity time—this is something that I still need to work on. I make the time (usually) for practicing my photography skills (currently mainly in the backyard), but I haven’t actually sat down and tried to learn a new craft. I think in part it’s due a little to imposter syndrome—never done it before and therefore I’m immediately judging myself poorly, instead of treating myself with compassion and understanding. This is something I notice myself doing quite a bit of lately, and it is something that I’m working on fixing—being more compassionate and caring with myself.

            In terms of the self-reflection—I would say it was a minor improvement in terms of journaling. For the most part I managed to do a oracle card reading (there were a couple of nights that I didn’t manage), and I feel comfortable in the path that I’m on. I am doing a balancing act—taking it easy, but at the same time moving forward. The biggest insight is that I realized that once I start to feel ‘bored’ on a job, I’d let my thoughts wander during the day—instead of being laser focused on the job. Therefore moving forward I need to make sure that the position is one that will constantly be challenging—also I need to remember that if I feel like I can do more, ask for more responsibility on the job.

            In terms of personal and professional development—I managed to finish the Data Science Syndicate program (and will be writing up my thoughts on both the program and possibly going that route), and downloaded the python program to my computer. I now need to start working through one of the other e-courses that I bought that focuses on python.

            I had just published a post ‘self-reflection, ‘jack-of-all-trades’ vs ‘specialist’, & now more planning’ earlier this week. Within the post I made note on what areas I was going to focus on, where I would consider myself either a jack-of-all-trades or specialist. I also manage to finish at least one book: ‘Careergasm: Find your way to feel good work; bullshit free advice to help you get after it’ by Sara Vermunt. One thing that I hadn’t been thinking on was what if I need to redo my goal list (again)?? I love this passage:

 

           “Sometimes the best thing to do is let go of some old goals that simply aren’t serving you anymore. Lighten your load. Let ‘em go. Make room. It’s time your goals start working for you again, and not the other way around”.

I think that is one of the major things I’ve been doing—recycling/renaming old goals and trying to make them look fresh. I in theory just made a new 150+ challenge list to complete in 2002 days (I decided to ‘modify’ the original 101 goals in 1001 days challenge). Now I’m thinking that I may be having to back to that list and modify it again—though the goals are all ‘me’—I’m just not certain that they’re for the ‘future’ me or the ‘past’ me—and I want to be working towards the future me, not being held back by the ‘past’ me.

So over all, I think I did well with the goals. Yes, I could have spent more time doing creative work—I will probably start doing more, once I remind myself that I don’t have to share the finished product with anyone if I don’t want to (and I think that has been one thing that has been holding me back—fear of what others will think). Self-care is always something that I can strive to be better at (this comes from the fact that I spent way too many years in academia pouring my heart and soul into something that really didn’t give anything back), and personal/professional development should be a never end road—and it is, I’m just slowly finding my way back to it, and will be traveling the road at my speed.

As I keep moving forward, I will also be remembering the following—“Progress over Perfection”, “You can’t start the next chapter of your life, if you keep re-reading the last one”, and “Not caring what other people think is the best choice you will ever make”.

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