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Slow progress is better than no progress, time to look for productivity trackers

So we’re going to be heading into May’s full moon within the next twenty-four hours, and hopefully the weather will improve. This full moon is also suppose to be lunar eclipse as well–but we’ve been having rainy/cloudy weather for the past few weeks, so there is a chance that I won’t be able to see the eclipse in the morning due to possible overcast conditions.

Therefore, before looking Sagittarius full moon, I should look back at the goals that I set for the Scorpio full moon and see how I did with each of them.

The goals for the Scorpio full moon included:

  1. Finish 21-Day Fix Real Time and then start 21-Day Fix Extreme Real Time
  2. Spend more time reflecting and set at least one ‘long-term’ goal (personal or professional) that is at least 5-10 years down the road
  3. Finish setting up my 12-month plan (based semi off the ‘long-term goal’; bonus–this would be finishing up a past Aries New moon goal as well)
  4. Continue with daily evening meditations

So how did I do with each of them?

  1. In terms of the two fitness programs–I decided to concentrate more on ‘intentional movement’ and then started LIIFT4 for the third time. It isn’t that I didn’t like 21-Day Fix & 21-Day Fix Extreme Real Time, but I just wasn’t in the mood to listen to the ‘lectures’ on ‘proper nutrition and eating’ as I’m still trying to improve my relationship with food. I will do these programs, but once I feel like my relationship with food has improved enough that I’m not worried about falling back into the mindset of restriction.
  2. In terms of goals 2 & 3–I’m still in reflection mode and contemplating ‘long-term’ goals, and still trying to flesh out the ’12-month’ plan as well. Though I did create a personal/professional board game over the past few weeks that could be tied to both of the goals. I’ve realized over the past few weeks that in terms of trying to set ‘long-term’ goals I keep hearing conflicting viewpoints. The viewpoints go from ‘yes, everyone should have at least one long-term goal to strive for’, and to ‘if you’re focused on a specific goal, you might miss an opportunity because it doesn’t align with your goal’.
    • These conflicting opinions, made me realize that I’m ‘afraid now’ of setting long-term goals for several reasons: 1) I tried that with grad school/post-docs (had thought of trying to obtain a professor position) and it didn’t happen; 2) I’m having ‘troubles’ seeing myself ’15+’ years down the road doing something (since I’m worried about possibly being on the ‘wrong track’ again); and 3) I’m striving to still find that ‘balance’ between different areas of life (since I know I have the habit of becoming laser focused on one thing to the determent of everything else).
    • But I’m working my way slowly away from the ‘fear’ by creating and playing my own personal/professional development board game. It is giving me the power to decide what I’m doing, what I’m studying/reviewing, how far in-depth I’m going, and how I’m going to showcase what I’ve learned.
  3. Meditation at night is going more or less smoothly–the only time I ‘skip’ it is if I’m either not feeling well, or something has totally messed up my evening routine (say a water heater spewing 20-30 gallons of water into the room). It hasn’t quite become a fully ingrained habit yet, but I’m making progress towards that end goal. It does help improve my sleep, and I think I’m going to also try morning meditation as well this summer.

So I may not have been totally on target with the Scorpio goals, but I also didn’t fall totally off target either. I’m slowly embracing the fact that productivity/health/life is all cyclic, everyone has good days/weeks and then bad days/weeks. The mark of improvement and progress is making sure that you strive towards getting back towards the good days/weeks instead of wallowing in the bad days/weeks. Also noticing what your productivity ‘cycles’ are can also help, in terms of wondering where you might need to have ‘fewer’ goals or when you can possibly add ‘more’ goals to your list.

I’m slowly starting to figure out my productivity cycle (it looking like peaks are beginning and mid-fall, slow climb/fall, ‘bottoming-out’ twice a year [April/May and possibly Oct/Nov]), but will continue to tract to be sure. A new ‘goal’ will be to try to limit the ‘fall’ and start the ‘climb’ quicker (only two months bottoming-out instead of the possible four).

So question: What are some of your favorite productivity trackers?

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Taurus New Moon Goals: making career, financial, & life plans

So the moon will be transitioning through the Taurus constellation today–bringing us to our fifth new moon for the year. Somehow we’re a little over a third of the way through 2021, it seems that time just crawled by last year and now is speeding up to ‘catch’ up (if that makes any sense).

While writing the post, I realized that I didn’t set any goals last year for the Taurus new moon. I spent most of April and May of 2020 in an angry haze at how the world was dealing with the emerging SARS-CoV2 pandemic. Since I wasn’t in a good place mentally last year–I spent more time ‘lurking’ than ‘engaging’ and offline whenever possible. Things are slowly starting to look up though (and I know it depends on the criteria–and currently my criteria is that there are component people in the White House that are actually listening to the scientists, and we’re no longer seeing over 100K new cases a day in the US).

Looking to the book ‘Moonology’, there are several things that one can focus on during the Taurus new moon and they include:

  1. Making a financial plan
  2. Checking in with yourself and seeing if you’re living your life in a way that allows you to honor your values. Values may change over time, so it is important to take the time every so often and ask yourself ‘what are your values’
  3. Be sensual; ask yourself “what would make my life better?”
  4. Character check; ask yourself “am I being too stubborn or too lazy?”
  5. Persevere–remember that life is more than just an ‘end goal’, one should also be enjoying the journey to reaching any goals set.

So if I were to look at my core values for 2021, they include: Vitality; Creativity/Curiosity; Spirituality/Inner Harmony/Peace; and Transformation/Evolution/Growth

I am trying to live my life in a way that is allowing me to honor my health and fitness (vitality), find the inner harmony/peace that is difficult to maintain when dealing with high levels of anxiety, and grow/evolve as a scientific industry professional/potential online entrepreneur, while maintaining my creativity and curiosity in the world around me.

In addition, the new moon in Taurus is also moving through my seventh house, or my ‘love zone’. This zone can also be referred to as the relationship zone as well. So what are some of the things that one can do during this time in regards to their seventh house?

  1. Go through old love letters and get rid of at least some of them.
  2. If you’re single and feeling brave, try online dating.
  3. Ask your parents about their ideas on how to make love (aka a relationship) work.
  4. Recommit to your partner
  5. If you hurt a past lover, admit you were wrong and apologize to them
  6. Make a list of the qualities you look for in a partner
  7. If you’re already attached, play matchmaker for a friend

Since we’re still in the middle of a pandemic, I’m going to focus more on the financial/personal development aspects of things. While most would say that it isn’t good to totally ignore the current house–I’m not ignoring it per say–I’m just not putting all my focus on it.

Yes, there is online dating, but that isn’t something that I want to focus on right now. That isn’t to say that I’m ‘afraid’ of online dating–I just don’t want to weed through the incompatible to find someone who may be compatible. As I stated on my 2019 Taurus new moon goals–I seem to be one of the odd ones that doesn’t mind being alone and unattached, plus I know that I still have other things to work out on my own before even attempting to stick my toes into the dating pool.

Therefore my goals for the Taurus new moon will include:

  1. Making a financial plan. I’ve been on a reboot break for a little over a year, and really should start thinking of ideas on how to start replenishing the savings account.
  2. Continue investigating the different potential directions that I’ve come up with in terms of transitioning away from academia.
  3. Try and finish the following books: Career Rehab: Rebuild Your Personal Brand and Rethink the Way You Work by Kanika Tolver; Creativity Rules: Get Ideas Out of Your Head and Into the World by Tina Seelig; and Percolate: Let Your Best Self Filter Through by Elizabeth Hamilton-Guanino
  4. Continue going through clothes and boxing (or bagging) up the clothes that no longer fit well for donation (or selling online)
  5. Continue with daily intentional movements and meditation.

While the goals seem to be on a repetitive loop from year to year–there is progress that is being made, but the steps are so small they may not be noticeable to the stranger’s eye. When I started this blog almost four years ago, it was with the intention of self-accountability on this journey of rediscovery–so while other may not notice the progress, trust me when I say that progress has been made.

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Review of Aries New Moon Goals: All that is left is to flesh out the plans

So it’s almost time for May’s new moon–it should be moving through the Taurus constellation over the next day or two (tomorrow marks the new moon for the US). The pandemic is still going strong (especially in India, which is suffering from its second wave). When I wrote the original Aries new moon goal post last month, I mentioned that the number of cases globally were just over 137 million, and within the US just under 32 million total cases. Now–globally there are over 159 million cases, and the US is just under 33.5 million cases. While some areas are getting things under control–we’re still a long ways away from a ‘new’ normal.

But back to the moon transitions–before looking ahead to the Taurus new moon, it is time to look back and reflect on the goals that I set during the Aries new moon and see how I did with each of them.

The goals for the Aries new moon included:

  1. Making a new 12-month plan.
  2. Start with Country Heat and transition to 21-Day Fix Live in terms of fitness
  3. Try to start incorporating more fruits into my day and then more veggies
  4. Read a book on positive thinking
  5. Continue to meditate nightly

So how did I do with each of them?

  1. In terms of the 12-month plan–I have a very rough draft that I’m still trying to flesh out in terms of quarterly/monthly/weekly/daily goals.
  2. In terms of fitness, I did about a week of Country Heat and then moved to 21-Day Fix Live. At the same time I was doing an intentional movement challenge of moving at least five minutes everyday. Therefore, keeping to that mindset my daily movement may or may not be a workout–it may be yard work, a walk, housework, or something to that extent.
  3. I’ve gotten a couple of books on intuitive eating that I’ve been looking through as I try to improve my relationship with food. I’ve realized that I like fruits a lot more than I do veggies. This makes cooking at times interesting since I don’t like to re-heat and eat most veggies.
  4. Nope, I didn’t read any books on positive thinking or psychology.
  5. Meditation is almost becoming a habit, especially in the evenings. While I’ve tried to also meditate in the mornings–that habit hasn’t stuck, so I think I’ll stick with the evenings.

So I set five goals for the Aries new moon (and actually one is almost a monthly addition to help me keep the habit going), and I managed to meet four of the five (so 80% completed) goals. The reading is something that always depends on my mood and whether or not I can get into the book, which is why I usually end up re-reading certain series constantly.

The health and nutrition is an ongoing journey. I realized quite a few months ago that I needed to change my relationship with food, get off the diet bandwagon, and ditch the mindset of counting calories, restrictive eating, and strictly follow a workout schedule. Currently I’m mending my relationship with food (realizing that I’m not eating enough protein, fruits, or veggies), and starting to think of intentional movement instead of daily workouts.

The 12-month plan has always been difficult–because that would mean that I picked a direction to go in (and then constantly dealt with the ‘fear’ that it may not be the direction I ‘really’ want to be going in). Currently I’m going to focus on online work (freelance/remote/contract) in the realms of writing, data analysis, project management, photography, and possibly consulting and tutoring/teaching.

I also realize that I have quite a bit of work to do in order to step in (and stand out in) those arenas–but I’m at least slowly edging out of the shadows and into specific areas–baby steps are still progress.

I’ve decided that I’m going to be ‘bouncing’ around in the realm of progress, and ‘floating’ in the area of imperfect, but doable work.

How have you manage to overcome analysis-paralysis to set (and meet) a long-term goal?

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The Pink Super Full Moon: Scorpio goals moving forward

So we’re heading into April’s full moon tonight, and it is also the second ‘super full moon’ (aka the pink super moon) of the year. I wrote in the ‘Libra Full Moon Review’ how I felt like everything was starting to ‘speed-up’ again after going so slow last year–but at the same time things are still in ‘slow-motion’. Everyone wants everything opened and back to ‘normal’–the only problem with that is that the old ‘normal’ is how we ended up in this damn global pandemic. Yes, there are vaccines against the SARS-CoV2 virus, but they only go so far in protection. I was talking with a friend last week and we were discussing ‘herd immunity’ and who knows what the actual percentage is and if we’ll ever reach it–the only reason why I say that is that it has been shown you can catch SARS-CoV2 again after having it (and it may end up being worse the second time around) and even if you have the vaccine–there is a small chance you can catch it still (and even a smaller chance that you could still possibly die from SARS-CoV2 related complications). I think that the virus is here to stay, and as a global society–we need to start figuring out a new ‘normal’.

Anyway, back to the April full moon and moving forward trying to find/define both my new ‘normal’ and what it is going to be looking like.

The April full moon is going to be transitioning through the Scorpio constellation. Therefore if one looks to the book ‘Moonology’ there are several questions that one can reflect on during the next few days, and they are:

Have I been jealous, vengeful, suspicious, or otherwise behaved toxically?

Have I been living out of fear rather than joy?

Have I been brooding and dark: focusing on the negative rather than the positive?

Have I been cruel and cunning?

Am I have the sex I need to feel good about myself (of course some people need no sex at all to feel good about themselves)?

If I were to number the above questions 1-5, my answers would be as follows:

  1. While I haven’t been acting jealous, vengeful, or suspicious towards anyone, I will admit to behaving slightly toxic towards myself. I realized last month, that I have been allowing the ‘bad habits’ of my inner critic/imposter syndrome to have full reign and I really didn’t get nearly as much accomplished as I would have liked. I realized that acknowledging my inner critic/imposter syndrome is the first step in dealing with them–I also need to actively work at dealing with the ‘bad habits’ that pop up whenever I feel/realize that I’m really stepping into the stretch/risk zones and out of the comfort zone.
  2. If I’m being totally honest–yes, I have been living out of fear rather than joy. This is tied into issues with my inner critic/imposter syndrome. Instead of figuring out ways of dealing with the various ‘problems’ as my mind makes them up, I allowed my inner critic/imposter syndrome to use them to reel me back into my comfort zone. Something again to work on this coming month.
  3. Well, again if I’m totally honest–I probably have been focusing a little too much on the negative rather than the positive. This is mainly due to the fact that I’m still trying to work out what I want to do moving forward. While I’ve semi-decided on possibly freelancing, remote, or contract work (or a mix of the three)–deciding on how to start is usually where all the negative thoughts creep in. Again, the problem has been acknowledged–I just need to start deciding on how to deal with the problems.
  4. No, I have not been cruel or cunning to others or myself.
  5. Again, the answer is no–mainly because 1) we’re still in the midst of a global pandemic, 2) therefore it really isn’t in good form trying to go out and meet new people, and 3) I’m still trying to figure out my life, which may (or may not) include at least one move in the near future. Therefore, I’m not in the mindset/mood to deal with another person’s opinions/thoughts on my future right now.

The moon then is also moving through my first house (or my Image zone), as I usually work with my rising sign (which happens to be Scorpio; as my sun sign is Virgo & my moon sign is Pisces). The first house (or Image zone) focus on you–your personal and/or professional life.

I realized that my moods, focus, and ability to really get numerous things accomplished goes through cycles (some months are more productive than others), and that I also fall into the habit of focusing on one thing over others (a habit that I’m working on breaking). Therefore, I’m actually going to focus on developing a good working plan (covering both personal and professional development) that I can actually stick with it. I’ve gotten a little better at ‘channel-switching’ during the day (going between computer and non-computer work), I will still avoid doing things that I know I should be doing in order to move closer to certain goals; also as nice weather stays–I need to work on the schedule on getting things done on the computer (either morning/night) instead of just sitting outside all afternoon. As I try to work on my inner critic/imposter syndrome, I’ve come up with a small list of goals that will also help me move back towards other goals. Those goals will include:

Finishing up 21-Day Fix Real Time and then starting 21-Day Fix Extreme Real Time

Spend more time reflecting and set at least one ‘long-term’ goal (personal or professional; bonus points if I can set one of each) that is at least 5-10 years down the road.

Then finishing setting up my 12-month plan (based semi off the ‘long-term goals’; plus this would also be finishing up the Aries new moon goal as well)

Continue to mediate daily/nightly

And above all remember as I continue through 2021–Aim for progress and not for perfection.

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Reflected and organized–planning still to be done: Review of Libra Full Moon Goals

So April is almost over, and that means that we will be heading towards the fourth full moon of the year on Monday. It seems taht time dragged by this time last year, but is speeding by this year. I’m not sure if it’s due to having a competent federal administration (at least at the executive level) and/or getting the pandemic slowly under control. But before I can look ahead to the next full moon, I need to look back at the goals that I set for the Libra full moon and reflect on how I did with each of them.

While it wasn’t a ‘goal’ per-say, I did managed to get a picture of the moon with my camera and longer lens (not the greatest, but not bad for the first time either):

March’s Libra Super Full Moon

So now back to the goals that I set for the Libra full moon? They included:

Working on my focal points (idea from the book ‘The Renaissance Soul: How to make your passions your life–a creative and practical guide’ by Margaret Lobensteine). Either ‘focus’ them more (making them more specific) or at least have my ‘whys’ added to them.

Create the ‘April brain-dump’ page; basically try to get all ideas and thoughts for the month of April onto paper. Giving me some direction for the month, plus allowing me to see what posts/pages I would like to create.

Continue working through various personal and professional development courses. Probably wouldn’t hurt to develop at least a rough draft of a personal/professional development plan.

So how did I do with each of them?

In terms of working on my focal points, while I didn’t make them any more specific, I did add my current ‘whys’ to each of them.

My evolving focal points plan

While I decided to keep the focal points semi-vague, I added in my ‘strengths’, core values, and my current ‘whys’ for each fo the five focal points. Keeping the focal points slightly vague was an attempt to try and keep my inner critic/imposter syndrome in check. I had spent a couple of weeks staring at the focal points and trying to make them more specific, but then I remembered this passage from ‘How to be everything: A guide for those who (still) don’t know what they want to be when they grow up’ by Emile Wapnick:

“When you lose interest in something, you must always consider the possibility that you’ve gotten what you came for; you have completed your mission. […] That’s why you lose interest: not because you’re flawed or lazy or unable to focus but because you’re finished”.

I felt like this passage could almost sum up the past twenty years of my life, and I wish I had spent more time in my 20s trying to figure out my life, instead of just going with the flow. Going with the flow can either lead you in the right direction–or carry you so far off your path, you have no choice by to start foraging a new one. Truthfully, I find myself in the second category–having to forage a new path to try to connect back to my ‘original’ path that I deviated from decades ago.

I created my ‘April brain-dump’ page almost as soon as I finished writing the Libra Full Moon post. In terms of making use of it–only a few things have actually been crossed-off/highlighted. I think this was due in part to the weather slowly warming up–I like to spend time outdoors when it is nice, and the other part were the more subtle ways of my inner critic/imposter syndrome pulling me back into my comfort zone.

While I have noticed different ways that I ‘self-sabotage’ myself at times, and with even having ideas on how to deal with those issues–I still fell into those habits this past month. I spent way too much time either surfing social media and/or amazon, plus reading various fiction books (I was pretty much binge reading the Fatal series by Marie Force to get ready for State of Affairs that came out on the 20th).

I’m going to actually try and make use of the one ‘time-management’ app that I downloaded earlier this year (it is called Self Control), and see if I can get more things accomplished in May than I did in April. As I sit here writing this post, I realize that I probably should have been making use of the app for a couple of months–but I allowed my inner critic/imposter syndrome to keep me from activating it with their best ‘lie’: ‘what if there is another webinar or whatever being announced, if you have the site ‘inactive’ you’ll miss hearing about it’. Well–I’m going to take that risk that I will miss out on hearing about something right away.

In terms of working through any personal or professional development course–yeah, that didn’t happen this month. Again it was a combination of the weather getting nicer (therefore wanting to be outside more), and having managed to work myself in a decent anxiety attack with trying to develop a personal/professional development plan (therefore having then ‘shut down’ for most of the month).

I’ve realized that I’m still struggling with trying to define any type of long term goal (basically where do I see myself in ‘X’ years), both professionally and personally–which makes trying to create any type of long-term plan difficult. While I can keep most things vague–I realize that I should try to make a semi-focused long term goal of say 5 years (which is something that I’m slowly working on), and also realize/embrace is the fact that the goal can (and probably will) slowly start changing as I really start figuring out what I really do enjoy doing on a daily basis.

So while I only had three goals set for the Libra full moon, I managed to meet (at least in part) two of the three goals. I added my ‘whys’ to my focal points, and did a ‘brain-dump’ of ideas for the month. I also realized that I tend to start having ‘problems’ getting more things done once the weather starts getting nice and I want to be outdoors more than I want to be indoors. This means that I will need need to try to get all the computer work done in the morning/evenings, or set up an ‘outdoor’ space for working. I will also start making use of the ‘self-control’ app to keep me from scrolling through various sites all day instead of working. Though as I look at what I’ve managed to accomplish (and what I had hoped to accomplish) this month (and year) to date–I realize, that I can ‘start’ the year over at any time. So that is what I will be trying to do: I will use this last week of April to reflect and plan for a ‘new year’ and May will become the new starting point.

This is allowing me to keep with the following quotes: ‘Progress over Perfection’ and ‘You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last chapter’. Progress, no matter how small will add up over time, and will carry one forward–the biggest hurdle is just getting started.

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‘New Astrological Year’: Aries New Moon Goals

It’s hard to believe that we’ve been dealing with the SARS-CoV2 viral pandemic for over a year now. The number of cases globally are over 137 million, and within the US we’re going to be hitting 32 million total cases tomorrow (April 13). Looking back at the post from last year–I can say that I managed to meet the top goals that I set at the outbreak of the pandemic (even though we’re still not totally out of it)–I managed not to catch the virus (and actually managed to get the J&J vaccine shot last week), and I have more or less managed to keep my sanity intact over the past year (now need to work on improving time and project management).

I’ve been trying to be better at posting this year than I was last year–I started the photography challenge again last week, and will probably be posting day 3 tomorrow (though in theory it should more like day eight). But enough about that–the moon is going through it’s fourth new phase either last night or tonight (depending on where you live), and it marks the ‘start’ of new astrological calendar.

So what are some things that one can work on during the Aries new moon?

They include:

Taking action on dreams and plans.

Making a 12-month plan

Be courageous in moving towards achieving your goals

Have some fun

Focus on yourself

Then one should look to see what house Aries is passing through to gain a little more prospective about the coming weeks. For me it is passing through my 6th house or my daily work and health zone. So for me this means that I should be trying to develop that daily schedule that allows me to focus on the top priorities in my life right now: personal/professional development, health (mental/spiritual/physical), and of course working on my transition plan (tied in with personal/professional development).

So if one looks back at the book ‘Moonology’, there are lists of things that one can pick from that are associated with each sign in each house–so for me when Aries goes through my 6th house I can pick and chose from the following:

Recommit to some type of exercise program

Think about (correct if need be) your eating habits

Help someone out this month

Talk to your boss about any work concerns you might have

Read a book on positive thinking

Eat healthy lunches or dinners for one month (no exceptions)

Learn to meditate

So I’m starting to find it a little uncanny at times how accurate the moon transitions are through the houses (especially when I know there are certain things I should be focusing on). While there are things that are listed and are considered ‘mainstream’ (such as correcting eating habits or eating healthier)–I’m actually working on developing a better relationship with food, and starting to listen to my body more. I’ve been sticking with a workout routine (at least platform wise) and by that I actually mean that I’m aiming at moving my body for at least five to fifteen minutes a day–doing a workout, chores, walking, gardening, or whatever; unless I feel like I’m in need of a rest day.

So what are the things that I’m going to try to focus on over the next few weeks?

Making a 12-month plan. I have my ‘focal points’ (more on these in another post)–now I just need to flesh things out to a yearly plan (with monthly/weekly and possibly daily goals)

Start with Country Heat and once the arm isn’t as sore transition to 21-Day Fix Live

Work on incorporating more fruits into my day and then slowly work on the veggies

Read one of the books I’ve bought on positive thinking (or at least on positive psychology)

Continue with my evening meditation routines.

And while the insanity of the world is slowly starting to come under control, I’m still going to focus on: Progress over Perfection.

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‘CIZED IT UP’: Looking back at the Pisces New Moon Goals

So we’ve entered April, and will soon be having the fourth new moon of the year (either tonight or tomorrow). Having a competent administration to deal with the ‘fires’ from the last administration, seem to be making the days and months go by faster this year.

So before I look ahead to the next new moon (Aries), it is time to look back at the goals that I set for the Pisces new moon and see how I did with each of them.

The goals for the Pisces New Moon included:

  1. Continue with CIZE–while it isn’t belly dancing, it is a dance program. It may teach me how to use my two ‘left’ feet before I try to find a free belly dancing program.
  2. Doodle sketch a cross-stitch pattern and work on cross-stitching this month.
  3. Finish patching the one afghan and start making a patch (or patches) for the second afghan.
  4. Continue with an evening meditation routine and try to meditate in the morning as well.
  5. Dream ‘big’ on where I would like to be in say 3-5 years and start making plans/goals for getting there.

So how did I do with each of them?

  1. I stuck with CIZE and actually am ‘finished’ with my first round. I say ‘finished’ because I didn’t totally follow the schedule for the program, but tried each routine at least once, include additional dance routines that were added to the program as ‘bonus’ workouts.
  2. I totally forgot that I was going to try to start working on a cross-stitch project this month.
  3. While I have a patch on the one afghan–I still need to finish stitching around the hole, and I haven’t started making the other patches for the larger afghan.
  4. For the most part I’ve been good with doing evening meditations before bed, though I haven’t really been able to get into the habit of meditating in the mornings yet.
  5. The ‘dream big’ goal–yeah, it hasn’t happened yet. The reason–good ole’ inner critic/imposter syndrome; while I’ve acknowledge my inner critic/imposter syndrome and am figuring out ways to work with it instead of against it–it does manage to drag me back into the comfort zone frequently (and this pass week that was where I was sitting).

So I managed to meet (more or less) three out of the five goals (so had a success rate of roughly 60 percent) this past month. Not perfect, but not the worse I’ve done either. I realize that part of the issue (at least for the past two weeks) was the anxiety over getting the vaccine for the SARS-CoV2 virus (I didn’t realize how anxious I was until I got in and out), the other part is still working on giving myself grace, acceptance, and realization that I’m not going to be perfect, probably will fall more than once moving forward and that’s fine–as long as I get back up and continue trying.

So I realized that I managed to keep one of the sayings for 2021 front and center this past month: ‘Progress over Perfection’. I’m making progress and it isn’t perfect–it’s messy, but that is life–messy if you’re trying to improve and live; it only seems ‘perfect’ if you’re willing to stay stagnant–and that isn’t something that I’m willing to do anymore.

I’m going to continue making 2021 a year of growth–and it doesn’t matter how microscopically small that progress looks to others as long as I keep moving forward.

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Pisces New Moon: Dream, Reflect, and Plan

So the moon will be making its third new moon transition today through the Pisces constellation.

One of the things I’m trying to focus on this year is productivity, while I was productive last year I wasn’t as productive as I wanted to be (in part due to the pandemic, self-isolation, and just general irritation at the world). I have yet to find a planning method for a calendar that I like, so I usually just stick with pen and paper. Currently the monthly brain dumps and picking topics from that seems to be working–though I still pick way more topics weekly than I can actually work through (or I still need to get better at time management).

Anyway, I’ve also decided that my once weekly ‘unplugging’ will bounce between Saturday and Sunday, depending on the workout schedule that I’m following and if there are group calls or other things that I need to get done and requires the use of the computer.

Currently, my ‘unplugging’ day will be Sunday (at least for the next three weeks), and may also change to a partial-unplugging day (if I’m doing a workout program that is actually daily).

So back to the Pisces new moon–what are some things that one can do during this time?

You can:

Dream

Face your fears

Follow your intuition/hunches

Heal-focus on working through emotional or spiritual issues

“surrender”-practice yoga or meditation

In terms of the above list–I’ve been trying to ‘face certain fears’ for the past year or so (and the pandemic really didn’t help matters). Truthfully I’d really say they’re more either anxiety issues or issues with my inner critic/imposter syndrome and not really fears.

There is my dislike of talking in specific circumstances: one-on-one with someone new (say at a newtowrking event) or in front of large crowds (say giving a talk). The reason: childhood ‘trauma’ of having teachers correct my speech (I hada ‘Boston’ accent when we moved to OK and I didn’t pronounce the letter ‘R’) and being stuck in speech therapy for 5 years to ‘correct’ the ‘problem’. While I’ve gotten better about talking with people–the anxiety still pops up every so often, and will probably more now that there are vaccines available for the SARS-CoV2 virus and travel will slowly start opening up again.

There is my ‘writer’s block’–which is my inner critic/imposter syndrome popping up every so often and pulling me back into my ‘comfort zone’. Though I’ve mentioned before that I’ve acknowledged this issue, and that the best way of working through it is to write, publish, and realize that I will slowly be figuring out and finding my tribe and that not everyone will like what I have to write about or the style in which I write it.

I’ve been working a little more on the intuition by doing oracle card readings nightly, though I haven’t been writing down the cards like I had previously. Currently my main question centers around ‘what can I focus on today’, and I then draw one to three cards. I also realize that with asking that particular question, I should really be doing the card readings in the morning–so I still need to work on developing a flowing schedule that works.

I’ve also been drafting a list of ideas of things to do to help focus on improving my emotional and spiritual health (possible topic for another blog post).

In addition, Pisces is also moving through my 5th house–or my fun zone. This is the area that is triggered by creativity, children, and romance. Now I’m currently good with the creativity portion (creativity is both a strength and one of my chosen words for 2021), but will probably be ‘ignoring’ the other two. I don’t have children (at least the two-legged kind; I do have furry children), and I’m still not in the market for romance (since I’m still trying to figure out my life & where I would possibly like to be within the next two years–plus there is still the pandemic).

So there are several things that one can do during this time that coincides with the fun zone:

Learn belly dancing

Make a toy for a child

Start dating

Go on a trip with your significant other

Do something creative (write, paint, so forth)

Do something that typifies your idea of fun

Throw a party

Since we’re still dealing with the pandemic, and while there are vaccines available–one should still wear a mask and social distance even after they receive the vaccine, I can cross three things off that list: dating, throwing a party, and traveling. Also will cross off making a toy for a child.

So my list of goals for the Pisces new moon will include:

Continuing with CIZE, while it isn’t a belly-dancing program, it is a dance program. It may teach me how to use my two ‘left’ feet before I try to find a free belly-dancing program online.

Doodle sketch a cross-stitch pattern and work on cross-stitching this month.

Finish patching the one afghan and start making a patch (or patches) for the second afghan.

Continue with a evening meditation routine and also try to start meditating in the morning as well

Dream ‘big’ on where I would like to be in say 3-5 years and start making plans/goals on getting there

While remembering: ‘Progress over Perfection’ and that I’ve stated that 2021 will be a year of growth, creativity, and curiosity leading to increased happiness and prosperity.

What are you doing for the Pisces new moon?

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Looking back at the Aquarius New Moon Goals.

So we’re going to be having the third new moon of the year this weekend. Unlike last year, hopefully the transition to daylight savings time won’t be the headache it was last year (remember–the full moon, time change, followed by Friday the 13th, and then the global lock down due to the SARS-CoV2 virus?).

Therefore it is time to look at the goals that I set for the Aquarius new moon and see how I did with each of them before looking ahead to the Pisces new moon.

So what were the goals that I set for the Aquarius new moon? They included:

Sorting, and editing the large number of digital photos on the computer.

Go through the large amounts of shirts and see what currently fits and what should be set aside (semi-clothing challenge)

Set up my Wiccan/pagan altar

Continue working on my evolving vision of my future

So how did I do with each of them?

I’m slowly sorting through the large number of digital photos that I have on the computer. While the long-term goal is to cut the number in half, it will take a while to go through over 10 years of pictures and decide which to keep and which to get rid of. I am happy to say that I’ve ‘recovered’ over a GB of space so far on the computer. Though I still have quite a ways to go to get it to ‘half’–currently I have almost 99GB of memory going for pictures–the goal is half, which means 49.5GB of memory. I’m now aiming at trying to recover between 1 & 3GB of memory every two weeks–which means it will probably take me another four to five months to par the pictures down (not counting the number I’ll be adding weekly once I start walking at Boomer Lake again).

The clothing challenge still stands. Since I spend most of my time currently in workout clothes, I truthfully hardly open the closet. Which means that I could probably donate a majority of the shirts and not realize they’re gone. While I’ve never considered myself a ‘clothing snob’-I realize that the reason why I have so many shirts–I hate doing laundry. Therefore I spent money buying shirts instead of spending the time doing laundry, or I bought several shirts as ‘souvenirs’ on vacation.

I will still be going through the closet at some point this spring and probably putting at least another box of shirts under the bed–probably to be donated once I’ve gotten the vaccine and feel comfortable to leave the house.

So I’ve started to set up my Wiccan/pagan altar. The altar will always be ‘a work in progress’ as the items one has out can change depending on the season or needs.

My starting point for my Wiccan/pagan altar

Currently I have mine set up on a small shelf–which is one of the reasons why it is ‘still a work in progress’. But, I’ve also thought of the current location as the ‘holding zone’ and will be moving items as needed to the actual area where I meditate and read oracle cards (as the shelf doesn’t have enough room for me to also spread out cards).

Since I’m an earth/water child (star-Virgo (earth), rising-Scorpio (water), moon-Pisces (water)), my altar also leans heavily in those directions.

There is a wood carving of a dolphin & sea turtle (purchased down in South Padre Island, Texas several years ago), in addition to the statue of the Goddess Danu, the Celtic goddess of life, and a statue of a goddess holding the triple moon pentagram and spiral.

I also have numerous crystals and minerals–both smooth and rough, I have worry stones off to the left next to a bag of Nordic runes (something that I’m interested in learning to read).

Since altars usually have symbolic items for the four elements (earth, air, fire, and water)–I’m currently missing an item for air and fire, but will be looking for those over the next few weeks/months. While I have a bell (that could be symbolic for air), it is currently packed away in my storage unit. Therefore, unless I stumble upon it repacking my storage unit–I will be looking for another symbolic element.

I may look for symbolic carvings or statues for the two elements, but sticking with Celtic and Norse traditions (as this is my heritage–Norwegian, Swedish, Finnish, Welsh, English, and also a little German as well).

The final goal of the Aquarius new moon was to continue working on my evolving vision of my future and try to project it two or three years into the future. Yeah, this didn’t really happen–I ended up with a mild anxiety attack instead of an idea of my future.

I’ve realized that one of the problems for me in trying to move my vision forward is the fear that I’m going in the wrong direction, taking the wrong job, lose said wrong job, and be back at square one.

What I have to continue reminding myself–even if something goes wrong, it still went right. I will have learned something from the situation/job that I can apply to the next job/position/situation. Something only stays as a negative if one fails to spin it into a positive.

For the past couple of months, I’ve had the same idea(s) for my career–having a freelancing business going (writing, data analysis, project management, photography, and/or online tutoring), but at the same time also working for a company (possibly as a clinical research scientist, market research analyst, or something else). The reasons for having both of them: 1) the freelance business allws me the freedom to chose what I’m doing (giving reign to the learner and intellection strengths), 2) working for a company allows me to have more interactions with people (yes, I know I would have them as a freelancer, but it may be a little more structured this way), and 3) ability to know that no matter what I’m getting a monthly paycheck.

So, that could be considered an evolving vision of where I see myself in a couple of years–now I need to determine the plan for each path, determine the steps and goals, and then start putting in the work to get there.

So I had basically four goals for the Aquarius new moon–two were accomplished (I started setting up my altar, and going through all my digital photos), and the other two were kinda of hit and misses. The evolving vision was semi-figured out while writing the post, but I haven’t gone through the clothes in the closet yet.

2021 is turning out to be a year of growth, creativity, and curiosity. It is leading to improved happiness and will also hopefully lead to improved prosperity as well this year.

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February’s Virgo Full Moon: ‘brain dumps’ plus mental & spiritual health goals

So the moon will be entering its full stage tonight as it enters the Virgo constellation. Unlike last year–there isn’t a triple whammy this year (last year was a full moon, setting the clocks ahead an hour, and Friday the 13th all within the same week). Luckily we still have two weeks before we have to set the clocks ahead (that will be followed by a new moon this year), plus we only have one Friday the 13th and that is in November.

If you’re one who tries to understand how your mood changes or is affected by the moon–the Virgo full moon usually has people feeling finicky and anxious. Personally–I don’t need any extra anxiety in my life; I manage to manifest enough of it on my own. Though no matter what I sign I go with (star, rising, or moon)–all three are able to handle the Virgo energy.

My star is Virgo, my rising is Scorpio, and my moon is Pisces; two water signs and an earth sign.

So what are some questions that one can ask during this full moon?

Have I been too picky, pedantic, or critical of myself or anyone else?

Have I been humble to the point of underrating myself?

Have i been of service to others enough this month?

Have I been worrying and complaining too much, and thus attracting negativity?

Have I paid enough attention to the details that I need to this month?

If I were to number the above questions 1-5, my answers would look like:

  1. I don’t think that I’ve been too picky, pedantic, or critical of others (I haven’t been around anyone other than family for a year). Though my overall critical views/thoughts of the world really haven’t changed all that much (though I’m calmer now that adults have been elected and sworn in for the US). In terms of how I see myself? I probably have been a little too pedantic and critical of myself lately. I’ve realized that I’m still allowing my inner critic/imposter syndrome to get the better of me quite frequently. This is something that I have to be watching for on a day-to-day basic and correct it as I catch it (in addition to trying to figure out why I’m slowly self-sabotaging myself).
  2. Another things that I’ve realized over the past year or so is that I have a terrible habit of trying to be a people pleaser (in a way that tries to downplay or mitigate any conflicts), and therefore I haven’t been protecting my time or space. How does that tie in with humbleness–I prefer being in the background and not center stage. Moving forward (either working for myself or going into industry) I need to start tooting my own horn and showing/highlighting my own worth.
  3. I have been doing more of the house chores, and am slowly also taking on more of the cooking chores as well at home. Hopefully with the fact that there are now several vaccines for the coronavirus, I may try to find a part time job later this fall/winter if I haven’t already transitioned into industry or started working for myself full-time.
  4. I’ve realized that at times I do worry/complain about the state of the world. This is something I’ve been trying to work on–worrying only about the things that are actually within my control (namely how I react to everything). I also realized that the negative self-thoughts are a litte harder to catch at times–but it is something that I’m working on daily. Also, it isn’t all negative self-thoughts, but at times actions as well that need to be caught and corrected.
  5. Well this depends on the situation. If we’re talking about the overall details of what I would like to accomplish in a given month–no I haven’t been giving enough attention to details. One of the things that I’m going to start doing is a monthly ‘brain dump’–getting all the ideas of what I would like to accomplish for the month on to paper, and then sorting that list into weekly and daily to-do lists. That way hopefully I will be spending time on all aspects of life and not just zeroing in on one thing and ignoring everything else (like I’ve been known to do).

So, one other thing that people should do is look at what house the moon is moving thorugh as well. For me (using my rising sign), the Virgo full moon is moving through my 11th house or my friend zone. Therefore, the period of the Virgo full moon is also a time to try to focus on the other people in my life, in addition to building and nurturing one’s personal and professional networks as well.

I really haven’t been doing nearly as much networking/connecting as I should be doing since I’m trying to transition into a new position. The reason may seem silly to some people–since I’m not 100% certain of what I want to be doing, I also don’t want to be ‘wasting’ other peoples’ time in informational interviews if I don’t feel like that is the direction I want to go in–but I also know that having informational interviews will help me decide on the direction. Like I said–not logical, but there you have it (one of the many ways my inner critic/imposter syndrome manages to trip me up).

While I have some ideas of what I would like to do moving forward, I am also in that ‘daily struggle’ with my inner critic/imposter syndrome to start dabbling in the stretch zone and start expanding the ‘comfort zone’. Therefore networking is going to be getting done, but at a slower pace than what I was doing this time last year.

So what goals can I set for the Virgo full moon?

Meditating nightly, journaling in the morning, and slowly figuring out how to find balance with the inner critic/imposter syndrome

Try doing a ‘monthly brain dump’–getting all the ideas of what I would like to get accomplished during the month (say for March), and then selecting ideas from the list to put on a weekly and daily to-do lists. Have it such that it is a mix of various things instead of focusing only on one area.

Continue working on the transition plan–figuring out which industry directions are of interest and start trying to network again.

But keeping in mind: that 2021 will be the year of growth, creativity, and curiosity, the combination of which will lead to happiness and prosperity.

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