We should be heading into October’s new moon tomorrow night (though depending on where you are in the world, the timing may be tonight instead). I’m trying to get better at posting on the blog—I’m slightly behind in the photography challenge, not that I don’t have pictures to post, but the stumbling block is actually trying to get something written about the picture (and hopefully with more than 100 words). Truthfully, before trying to blog I never really paid that much attention to how many words were in a particular writing assignment.
So before looking to the next new moon, I should look back at the goals that I set for the Virgo new moon, see how I did with each one of them, and where I can still work on improvements.
So what were my goals for the Virgo new moon?
Take inventory of various aspects of life and try to develop a working schedule that will allow me be both productive, but at the same time enjoying time outside as well.
Continue with daily workouts (currently it is a combo of Yoga Booty Ballet with LIIFT4).
In combination with #1—organize the schedule, possibly alternating days that certain things are done on (for example networking on Mondays & Wednesdays, but following up with people on Tuesdays & Fridays).
Continue with nightly oracle card readings and also try to spend at least two to three minutes meditating (either before or after the reading).
So how did I do with each goal?
In terms of taking an inventory of my life and developing/organizing a schedule—still working on it. I’ve realized that one of my major problems (and possibly the number one trigger of my anxiety) is that I try to put way to much stuff on the plate for any particular week or day.
I think that I have to work on all aspects of life constantly—for example I’m doing a daily workout (getting back into a fitness routine), trying to work through various e-courses, read, network, brainstorm ideas, spend time on crafts, and keep my sanity.
I think that the best thing will be developing the schedule and alternating days of doing things—make the small steps each day/week towards the goals but alternate what goal I’m working towards any particular day. I’m thinking of limiting it to no more than 2 to 3 goals a day, and no more than 4 to 6 goals a week. This way I’m focusing on 2 to 3 areas of life (fitness/nutrition and then personal and professional development).
In terms of continuing with the daily workout—I’m into week 4/5 of my combo calendar. It would be starting week 5 of Yoga Booty Ballet, but basically ending week 4 of LIIFT4. I should be done with this combo mid-November and then going on to 10 Rounds (which is another resistance/cardio combo program).
I’ve already touch a little on how I’m really going to try to break up tasks and try to focus on certain things on certain days (trying to hopefully keep the anxiety and nerves under a little more control).
In terms of nightly oracle card readings and meditations—I’ve only missed a couple of nights (usually running behind on everything else and I just want to turn off the lights and unwind for awhile before heading to bed). I’m really getting into one of the new sets of oracle cards I got recently and should hopefully be putting up a review of it on the blog in the coming weeks.
It’s nice to see that even when I don’t have a clear question for the universe, I’m still being shown that I am on the right path.
While there are many people who didn’t agree with my decision to quit my job in December to do some much needed soul-searching and reflection—I needed to do it for me, and no one else.
I’m coming closer to figuring out my path—I just have to remember that everyone feels like a fraud from time to time, everyone makes mistakes, and that no matter how small the steps are if I keep moving forward long enough, once I turn around to judge my journey I’ll be impressed with how far I’ve come.
But I am also going to be keeping the following quotes/phrases front and center as well:
“Progress over Perfection”, “You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one”, and “Not caring what other people think is the best choice you will ever make”.
So during the month of February I decided that I was going
to use the Sacred Rebels Oracle deck (I also got this deck out in Salem last
October, along with the unicorn deck). This is a deck that will take a little
bit more time to get use to using, as it doesn’t just address the emotions, but
also a little bit of the mindset behind certain behaviors. So I will admit that
there were times that I kept shuffling the cards and drawing until I felt
comfortable with the message—I know that I should have worked with the first
message, and this is something that I’m going to be working on in the future.
Possibly by doing two different readings (ones that I post, which will come
from possibly a different deck; and then another reading from the sacred rebels
deck) and working on incorporating the messages from both in my life.
So the Sacred Rebels Oracle deck has forty-five different
cards that cover a wide range of thoughts and emotions. Out of those forty-five
cards, there were seven that I either didn’t pull or I reshuffled on (without
making note of them). With the remaining thirty-eight cards, the number of
times they showed up ranged from once up to six times. The cards that showed up
the most were:
Inner Trust (4 times)
Inspiration (6 times)
Follow your own rhythm (4 times)
Shock of the new (6 times)
Diving for light (4 times)
Going beyond normal (4 times)
Dream a beautiful dream (5 times)
Seeing the true you (5 times) The other thirty cards showed up one to three times throughout the month. So lets look at some of the readings that I did during February.
On the second, I did a simple three-card spread. Sometimes
people use this as a past, present, future read or asking about a certain
question. For the most part during February I was doing a three to four-card
spread to have an idea of what the following day might be bringing.
The three cards that were drawn on the second were: 14)
going beyond normal, 23) defend to the end, the worthwhile, and 29) seeing the
true you. So as many may know—I’m also starting to look at transitioning from
academia to industry, and that is one thing that the card could be referring
to—the safe would be staying in my position, or finding another academic
position (that probably doesn’t pay all that well, and the duration is questionable
as well) or step out of my safety zone and go into industry (or some other
direction other than what I’m currently doing). The second card refers to
standing your ground for what you believe in (and that is especially important
in today’s society with the way the world is going). The final card is a gentle
reminder that while it is important what others think of us—those reflections
don’t define who we are—we define who we are and that we need to start looking
at our own mirrors and not the mirrors that others hold up to us.
the thirteenth, I did another three-card spread and those three cards that were
drawn were: 38) restore and replenish; 3) inspiration; and 6) shock of the new.
With the restore & replenish card, basically the universe is telling you
that you need to a change. The same routine is only going to give the same
results. It also lets us know that at times we’re going to fast and hard that
it is also time to slow down and listen to our bodies and inner voices.
Inspiration is almost self-explanatory. There are so many ideas and thoughts
that bounce around in our heads that we need to take time daily and write them
down. Some may be good, some may be bad—but if we don’t write them down we will
probably forget about them all by the end of the day. This is one thing that
I’m trying to do daily—write down both ideas and things that I’m grateful for
(no matter how silly they would probably seem to other people). The final card is
a reminder that nothing really stays the same, and new opportunities could
present themselves in unexpected ways
On the seventeenth, I did a four-card spread, and the cards
drawn were: 18) spirals of manifestation; 42) the word wants to be written; 39)
free from judgment, free to love; and 16) what you want, wants you. So the
spirals of manifestation reminds us that we may be closer to our goals/dreams
than we think we are and that we should continue working towards them. “The
word wants to be written” card is a little deceiving when one pulls it for the
first time—it’s message is to be true to yourself, and uncover your path by
remembering who you are (not who others think you should be). While it can also
resonate with creative projects, the biggest project is listening to the inner
voice and remembering what makes you smile, happy, and figuring out how to
incorporate all of that into the crazy world we live in today. The free from
judgment, free to love reminds us that self love/care is important, and that it
is perfectly fine to be in tune with our emotions and wanting to help others,
but at the same time we should guard against those who want to take advantage
of that. The final card states that we should trust in what we truly want, and
if we’re unsure of what we truly want we should enjoy the process of exploring the
things we enjoy. Only by either truly knowing what we want, or exploring
different areas of ourselves can we actually find ourselves on the correct
Then on the twentieth I did a five-card spread in the
pattern of a cross (and that is only because that is how the cards talked to me
that night). The cards that I drew included: 6) shock of the new; 14) going
beyond normal; 17) what is already with you; 15) big bold vision; and 44)
visions of life beyond death. So two of the cards I’ve already talked about a
bit (shock of the new and going beyond normal), though in the combination with
the other cards, they can take on a slightly different meaning. In terms of
“what is already with you”—we (usually) have what we need to make a change in
our lives—we can change our major, move, start looking for a new job, or
whatever—we just have to believe in ourselves (as not believing in ourselves is
usually the biggest obstacle to overcome). This is still something that I
struggle with in terms of my job search—I know that I have it within me to make
the transition, but at times I let the negative voices have a bigger voice than
what I should (and this is something that I try to work on conquering on a
daily basis). The “visions of life
beyond death” is another card that can be a little deceiving when one pulls it
for the first time—it’s message is to take another look at things/situations
and try to truly see what they mean to you (see what is actually there instead
of what you perceive to be there). Also to remember that it’s easier to look
through joyful, happy emotions than it is through fear, anger and darker
One of the things that I’ve noticed this month in using the
cards is that I’m being reminded that I’m here to live life for myself and not
others. It is time to start being true to myself (in terms of both spirituality
and life in general), and that my “perfect 9-5” job is out there, and I just
need to find some calm and quiet time to get in touch with my inner self and
voice to be able to hear what that position is. This will be a deck that I use
again this year (possibly as early as September or October) and I’m sure I will
get more comfortable with the interpretations and readings the more often I use
So I was having trouble deciding what to post for today’s photography challenge–it was overcast this morning so there was no sunrise picture, and cloudy all day so there wasn’t even a cloud picture to try to take at work. Therefore instead of randomly taking a picture of one of the animals, I decided that I’d share one of my oracle card readings instead.
This month I have been using the Sacred Rebels Oracle deck (this is the second deck that I got out in Salem last fall). I’m still getting use to the cards, as the messages take a little longer at times to figure out.
Last night’s spread brought the intertwining messages of trusting yourself (your inner voice and intuition), and then bringing your dreams into reality.
Right now I’m working towards trying to bring about the job transition from academia to industry. One of my trouble spots is networking (or figuring out how to add value to others), and that is something that I’m trying to work on this year.
I have numerous different craft/artistic ideas floating around in my head as well–these are other things that I need to make the time to work on. The final thing that I need to focus on is my health and fitness. This isn’t to get to some number on the scale–but to be able to do things–I’d like to hike to the Incan ruins in Peru, hike at the Grand Canyon, and do things like that. But in order to do those things–I have to be in a lot better shape than what I currently am–which is why I’m trying to go through various workout programs (doing them as a mesh-up) and trying to get my nutrition into moderation over any of those “diet” fads that are out there.
That is at least what the cards “said” to me…Their message to you may be different.
So one of the things that I have decided to work more on
cultivating is my spirituality. Note—I said spirituality and not religion. I
don’t believe in organized religion, or the idea that you have to be threatened
with the thought of eternal damnation to be a good person. If you need that
threat to behave—you have moral issues in addition to spiritual issues.
Depending on my mood (and possibly people around me), I
fluctuate between saying that I’m a pagan/wiccan and I’m an atheist. The last
time I actually set foot inside a church was back in 2001 for my older
brother’s wedding. My main criticism of organized religion is that they all
argue that one is better than the other, when in truth they’re all the same
(just slightly different forms) and no matter what—we all bleed the same.
So in terms of cultivating my spirituality more, I’ve
decided that I’d do a couple of different things: 1) to read more books on
different aspects of spirituality (there are probably a good half a dozen on my
personal/professional development book list), 2) build my own pagan/wiccan
altar, and 3) do a daily tarot/oracle card reading (which may or may not be
posted on social media). I think that there have only been probably two or
three days this year that I haven’t posted my evening oracle card reading.
In terms of the daily card readings, I have also decided
that each month I will try to stick with one oracle/tarot card deck. Currently
I have like six different decks in my room (and another three or four in my
storage unit). Card readings have always fascinated me, in that it’s a way of
seeing what the universe has in store for us, and to possibly get another view
to a question.
So last month’s deck that I used as the Oracle of the
Unicorns (which I bought out in Salem last October when I was there on a
mini-vacation). I have always been fascinated by the idea of supernatural
creatures (and I don’t mean the horror show variety), but ones that have both a
human side and an otherworldly side (I guess that is one reason why I’m drawn
to paranormal romances as well). So back to the cards—January was the month of
the unicorn for me. This was the second month of using oracle cards for
guidance (December was using the enchanted spell oracle cards), and wisdom.
So the oracle of the unicorns has forty-four cards in the
deck, and over the course of January, only two cards weren’t drawn in a reading
(either privately or ones posted on Instagram). Of the other cards, the number
of times ranged from a single drawing to eight times over the month. The cards
that showed up the most in the drawing included:
Adventure (8 times),
Passion (8 times),
Strength (8 times),
Freedom (7 times),
Prosperity (6 times),
Imagination (5 times),
Intuition (5 times),
Miracles (5 times),
Patience (5 times),
Rebirth (5 times), and
Trust (5 times). The others (other than leadership and
beloved) showed up between one and four times, throughout the month.
So let’s look at some of the readings that I did last month:
So on the 9th, the spread stated that adventure and change are still on the horizon, though it is also a time for self compassion and forgiveness. Strength and passion will also see you through the process as well. One of the things that I am trying to work on this year, is replacing the negative self-talk with more positive self talk (more compassion towards myself). Adventure is pretty self explanatory—the world is a large place, and we really shouldn’t stay in just a small area of if (though now traveling is expensive—but one should try to do at least one trip a year; preferably to somewhere they haven’t been before).
The passion card refers to more than just doing what you love—it also refers to taking care of yourself. Again this is something that I’m working on this year. Though my methods may go against the norm, but I’m going with moderation (still having snacks [i.e. chocolate and candy], and not putting a label on food [good vs bad]), and doing some type of exercise at least six days a week—a rest day is always good).
The strength card is referring to the fact that life will always be testing us, and that we can get through it to the other side stronger than what we started. The “main test” this year is my transition from academia to industry, and finding my footing again in terms of getting into the best shape of my life.
So on the 16th I decided to do a pyramid reading using the cads. I was thinking on another question in terms of my job search (the why), and got quite a bit of information from the unicorns. They were urging me to remember what excites me about science, but at the same time listen to my inner voice and be in the moment. There will be more networking on the horizon and a new path will be forged and support from other will help on the way.
The awareness card reminds us that only when we are truly living in the moment do we actually feel peace and security—and that our guides are watching over us and that things are happening for a reason. The passion card showed up again in the pyramid—showing that it has a firmer foundation when you surround yourself with liked minded individuals who are also seeking to grow. But at the same time you need to listen to your inner voice and trust your instincts (intuition).
The rebirth card showed up in the spread. This unicorn urges you to shed what no longer is of use to you, so that you can continue growing into the person you were meant to be. The support and friendship cards showed up to remind us that we don’t have to do everything alone, that there are people who support us in our journeys and to surround ourselves with them.
This was a reading that I did right around the time of the Leo full moon, and I was also trying to reflect back on different areas of my life. I noticed that the unicorns were urging me to slowly start stepping out of my comfort zone so that I could grow and reinvent myself this year. I had stated that while change can be scary, its better than being stuck in a job you don’t love and one that doesn’t offer that much growth.
So again the passion card showed up in the spread, as well as the rebirth card. In addition to the oracles of celebration, flow, and expansion.
The oracle of celebration reminds us to look for even the smallest achievements and successes that we’ve been having (for me at times that means getting through the work day without actually saying what is on my mind), and that if we remain positive, we will be reward with positive outcomes as well.
The oracle of flow reminds us that somethings aren’t meant for us and that once we realize that and surrender the outcome things become much easier to navigate. All you can do is your best, and once the day is done—the day is done. No one should be trying to repeat and correct days that they had already done their best on.
The oracle of expansion is reminding us that we need to spread our wings and soar. Once that happens we can share our magic with the world, and maybe just maybe start making the world a better place for all of us.
Adventure is still on the horizon, but as always there is an obstacle in the path, but strength and believing in myself will see me through to the other side. Action, self love, and believing in dreams will also see me through.
So the adventure and strength cards showed up again in today’s spread. The main obstacle to my transition is my negative thoughts and doubts about what I actually want to be doing in my next career. The unicorns are saying that I’m ready for taking that step—I just need to believe in myself and take that first step. In addition, I need to practice self love and realize that I’m not going to look like others even once I get into the best shape of my life—but that I need to love myself now and realize that getting into shape isn’t to punish or change, but to honor myself by being able to do things that I’ve wanted to do (but haven’t due to the fact that I’m out of shape).
Also I’m reminded that there are divine powers that are watching over me, and that at the right time my “prayers” or requests will be answered by the universe.
The unicorns said that change is still on the horizon, and that hard work, patience and imagination will get me there; along with help from friends and mentors.
The oracle of patience is to remind us that it is okay to slow down every once in awhile—if we do hard work, put in the effort, there are times when all you can then do is wait (i.e. after a job interview) to see if the fruits of your labor paid off. The oracle of growth is reminding us that having a mentor (or several mentors) can always help the process go a little quicker as well.
The oracle of imagination is there to remind us not to neglect the other half of our selves—the side that loves imagining new things, ideas, creations, and so forth. In addition the healer showed up in the spread, to remind that we all have gifts to share with the world.
So these were just a few of my evening readings from last month. As I continue on my spiritual path, I’m slowly realizing that there are some decks that make it easier to share the insights, while other decks seem to be a little more personal in the readings and interpretations. The unicorn deck is one deck that I will be going back once I’ve cycled through all of my decks.
Also once I have my wicca/pagan altar built, the guidance of the cards may pop a little more than what it’s currently doing (as my current reading spot is on the rug in my bedroom).
If you are looking for an oracle deck to start using yourself for inspiration and guidance, this is one (of probably many) that I strongly recommend.
So I’m going to be trying to restart my photography challenge–that means taking a picture everyday for at least the next 365 days (I’m aiming at trying to complete a one year challenge to begin with). The subject of the photos will vary either daily or hopefully weekly. Also depending on my schedule I may end up doing a weekly review if I run out of time in the evenings trying to post them on the different social media pages (or they may even vary on the different platforms).
One of the photography subjects is going to be tarot/oracle cards. Currently I have six different decks (not counting the three or four that I have in my storage unit). I’m thinking that I’m going to do daily (or every other day) readings for a month from each set–though around the full moon, I might do the readings from a particular deck (even if it isn’t that decks “month”). I’m also going to be doing two readings at the end of this month with two different decks.
The first deck that I’m using is the Enchanted Spell Oracle Deck. Tonight I decided to do a crescent moon reading to get an idea of things to come both this month and in the coming year. The cards that I pulled for the reading are telling me that I need to figure out creative ways of generating abundance–though I need to figure out what I consider abundance first, I also need to guard against draining energies of other people, and to have patience and to know that change is coming.
I’m glad that when I’ve been doing readings over the last few months (though not as often lately as I should have been doing) and that no matter what deck I’ve been using–rebirth and change have been a common theme. This means that changing directions in my career is the correct decision–now I just need to figure out what that directional change is going to be.
I open myself up for guidance from the universe and it’s teachers (be they unicorns, dragons, or other mystical creatures). 2019 will be the year of change, and new adventures and dreams.
I’ve been getting back into trying to do a daily evening reading using one of my current oracle or tarot card decks. I know that some people like to do it in the morning—but I barely give myself enough time to get ready and out the door in the morning, and I don’t really want to rush doing a reading.
I cycle between the different decks (as you know if you also follow me on instagram) though I might use the same deck for two or three days before going to a different one.
I’ve been trying to be more honest and true to myself, and therefore have been doing these readings—this is my form of “praying”—to where I’m asking the universe what are my options going forward. I know that these cards are just “suggestions” and ones that I can chose to ignore (though that means staying stagnant) or listening to and growing.
So I’ve decided that I’d share some of the readings that I’ve done over the past week or so.
When I did a reading using the #wildunknowntarot deck, I drew cards that corresponded to change, positive energy, and contentment being on the horizon. Basically stating that forward is the direction to go, no matter how scary that unknown journey is going to be–I need to find the joy and excitement in the journey.
I’d done a similar reading using the #wildwoodtarot deck, to where I was pointed to walking through a gateway onto a new path, goals will be reached (through commitment and focus), and continuation of my path back to my spiritual truth.
Earlier in the month I did a #mooncyclespread using the #flowersofthenightoracle deck on the night of the #virgonewmoon. I know that I need to listen to my inner voice and feel more self confident in the planning of my job transition. One door will soon be closed, and then I just need to look for the one that will be opening. I’ve decided it’s time to start moving on and exploring other scientific job opportunities outside of academia.
When I used the #enchantedspelloracle deck–I saw that I needed to really think of switching directions, as being at the bench is basically behind me–though it could also mean that academic research is behind me, and I can still do bench work in industry. But I do need to figure out which direction I should be turning to figure out what is ahead of me.
And finally, when I drew a card from the #chakrawisdomoracle deck–I drew a card for the #browchakra. Which was fitting as I’m slowly stepping into the unknown as I work on my career transition from academia to industry.
So in conclusion—I’m not crazy for wanting change–staying in the same place where you don’t grow is crazy. This is something I’ve been guilty of doing over the years because I always feared the change more than the stagnant position. But as I am looking at my birthday coming up in a few days, I’ve realized that I need to start embracing change and stepping outside of my comfort zone every now and then. By doing so I can slowly start achieving things that I’ve been too scared to try to do before hand.
So I’ve decided that I need to start being more authentic and staying true to myself. This means in one aspect besides meditating, starting to use oracle and tarot cards again to help gain a glimpse of what the universe is trying to tell me. I’ve realized that over the past (let’s say) decade I’ve ignored my intuition and gut feelings on numerous occasions. By doing this I’ve found myself on a path that I can truthfully say I probably shouldn’t be on, and now I need to make the leap, or at least start forging the path back to the one I should be on.
Last week I decided I would order a couple different oracle card sets (and I’ve also recently ordered a couple different tarot card sets that should be showing up sometime next week). I’ve been trying to a reading at least every other night or so, and Friday night, I decided I’d do a duel three card reading from the two sets of oracle cards that I have.
From the first set (enchanted spell oracle) I pulled the luxury, clarity, and intellect cards.
Then from the second set (flowers of the night oracle) I pulled the passion, awaken, and restore cards.
The meanings of the cards are as followed (from the enchanted spell oracle deck): The luxury card symbolizes that my life could use a little more joy right now. The clarity card symbolizes that I have a big undertaking ahead of me that requires my absolute focus, and that I need to write down every step I need to take in order to accomplish this goal (or undertaking). The intellect card symbolizes that I need to be using my head not my heart in making decisions (i.e. applying logic to the situation and not just reacting).
From the flowers of the night deck: the passion card symbolizes the possibility of new relationships, or basically anything that can bring a spark to my soul (hobby turning into a career, or a new perspective that changes a current position on something). The awaken card symbolizes my acknowledgement that I still have much to learn if I want to transition into industry, plus much to learn in terms of different hobbies. The restore card is symbolizing that a change is coming for me, and that it will be beneficial in the long run, all I have to do is accept and reflect back on the cycles that have brought me to my current position (and know what needs to be fixed to insure that those cycles aren’t continuously repeated).
So all these cards were basically spot on based on how my last week had been going. I probably can use a little more joy in my life—I seem to be stuck in the work, no play mindset right now; or I should say the work, try to recharge, back to work mindset. I’ve realized that by the time Friday rolls around my mental/metaphysical/emotional battery is pretty close to being totally empty, and it does basically take the weekend to recharge it to almost full just to then get depleted during another week at work. I am trying to transition into an industry position, so I probably should make a detailed plan on how that is going to happen, and I need to make the decision on the career path mainly with my head and not my heart. Though with this—I’m also trying to stick with the idea that “if something isn’t a hell yes, then it’s a no”. Staying within my comfort zone has shown me that research hasn’t always been a hell yes for me, and therefore I should have moved it to the no column long ago. I’ve also decided that just because I’m out of school, I shouldn’t just quit trying to learn things (I know I did that for awhile, just to “take a breather from school” but hadn’t realized how long I let the attitude go on for). So I do have numerous e-courses that I am still working my way through. Also a change in careers in coming; whether it’s a straight transition into an industry position, or a transition into industry with a small stop in unemployment again that remains to be seen.
So I’m going to start paying more attention to my hunches, feelings, and daydreams—while trying to avoid all the negative self talk that I sometimes find myself falling into. I know now with hundred percent certainty that I’m done with academia (though I will miss working with students), and that I need to focus more on the transition into industry.